I plan on doing basically exactly as you have. Philosophy/English...maybe psychology. My family/friends/teachers are trying as hard as possible to dissuade me, but it's something that I really love and it's quite the decision.
I think it's great. I think you'll be a good teacher. -Especially because- you've spent so long being, as you say, terrified.
It's funny how much you are a philosopher. (And how much I love Nietzsche.) You, the philosopher, wanting to see the future, wanting to -know- the -truth.- (Why not rather untruth?) Why do you see this as an impasse? This is the opposite! To be without a career at 22 and with no one to support is to still have a world of opportunity. Lots of people make it just fine without any degree at all and you will have one and even if it doesn't guarantee you a good job you're defining your life as you go and that's how it should be! And if you find you don't like the next step once you get there then you have every right and complete ability to change and step some otherwhere. Not like your friends who go on and get their PhDs of medicine or law and start a practice find themselves with good jobs and lock themselves into lifestyles dependent on that money before realizing they hate their job and only got there from
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You know, that's sort of the way I've been thinking of it, too. Most of the time. I've been at home too long, constant pressure and my father's veiled disappointment that I'm not persuing something 'worthwhile'.
Something Zeke said to me a few days ago resonates in me now: "I'd hate to think that my best days are behind me already." Time will tell.
Yeah well Zeke said the same thing to me like four years ago.
This morning my housemates were watching The Matrix as I fixed my turkey sandwich before work and I caught the part where Smith is saying, "It seems you've been living... two lives. One of these lives... has a future: one of them... does not." And for the first time I heard it as a really profound line, because of its irony (your favorite!) which I think was intentional. What a statement about what authority wants us to be! All because authority is worried for our safety and happiness. But some of us are looking for more than safety. Which are the ones headed for worthwhile futures, do you think? Aren't you the one who told me (did I tell you? was this someone else?) about the smartest guy in the universe dedicating his life to raising his kids? Because obviously this is basically the choice you're making. Except for a lot of minds
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I think my crippling self-doubt is holding me back in this (and many more) areas. I want to forge my own path, but who am I? I'm scared of being unable to determine my own path, but I'm (almost?) more scared that the path I would choose is wrong. Or I feel some inexplicable moral responsibility to the rest of humanity. I'm having trouble explaining exactly what I mean.
Something to the tune of J Alfred Prufrock (which I very much have a love/hate relationship with)
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I want to be a teacher as well. :\
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But I think that teaching people is a good direction for me. I understand things so much better than I do them.
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Philosophy/English...maybe psychology.
My family/friends/teachers are trying as hard as possible to dissuade me, but it's something that I really love and it's quite the decision.
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It's funny how much you are a philosopher. (And how much I love Nietzsche.) You, the philosopher, wanting to see the future, wanting to -know- the -truth.- (Why not rather untruth?) Why do you see this as an impasse? This is the opposite! To be without a career at 22 and with no one to support is to still have a world of opportunity. Lots of people make it just fine without any degree at all and you will have one and even if it doesn't guarantee you a good job you're defining your life as you go and that's how it should be! And if you find you don't like the next step once you get there then you have every right and complete ability to change and step some otherwhere. Not like your friends who go on and get their PhDs of medicine or law and start a practice find themselves with good jobs and lock themselves into lifestyles dependent on that money before realizing they hate their job and only got there from ( ... )
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Something Zeke said to me a few days ago resonates in me now: "I'd hate to think that my best days are behind me already." Time will tell.
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This morning my housemates were watching The Matrix as I fixed my turkey sandwich before work and I caught the part where Smith is saying, "It seems you've been living... two lives. One of these lives... has a future: one of them... does not." And for the first time I heard it as a really profound line, because of its irony (your favorite!) which I think was intentional. What a statement about what authority wants us to be! All because authority is worried for our safety and happiness. But some of us are looking for more than safety. Which are the ones headed for worthwhile futures, do you think? Aren't you the one who told me (did I tell you? was this someone else?) about the smartest guy in the universe dedicating his life to raising his kids? Because obviously this is basically the choice you're making. Except for a lot of minds ( ... )
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I think my crippling self-doubt is holding me back in this (and many more) areas. I want to forge my own path, but who am I? I'm scared of being unable to determine my own path, but I'm (almost?) more scared that the path I would choose is wrong. Or I feel some inexplicable moral responsibility to the rest of humanity. I'm having trouble explaining exactly what I mean.
Something to the tune of J Alfred Prufrock (which I very much have a love/hate relationship with)
Do I dare disturb the universe?
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