[He had been looking away from Lelouch since his first entered, since the urge to run the emperor's face through a brick wall was rather overpowering. There was a rather tense silence from him before he responded, as he tried his best to choke that urge down.]
[He bristles at the notion that Lelouch will take care of it-- he's the one who Geassed her to BEGIN WITH --but, but mainly for Euphie's sake, he refrains from saying anything.
He does manage to give Euphie a soft squeeze on her shoulder, and his expression softens as he looks at her. That said, he doesn't bother to announce that he'll be back as well, since some part of him did recognize that it might be better to stay away, and he honestly didn't know what was about to happen between him and Lelouch.
Particularly since he's glaring daggers at him as he follows him to... wherever the hell they're going.]
[SO FAR AWAY. There are cornfields. So many cornfields.
OOC: Also, the insisting with Cornelia was done via look only, no verbal communication. It's how those two roll.]
Somewhere whatever happened back there is not likely to be repeated. And somewhere I can find out what exactly that was without causing further damage.
[Whirls around, a dangerous and unsettled light in his eyes, as if just barely keeping panicked guilt and an encroaching madness at bay.]
Because, Suzaku, in case you have forgotten, it will have to be me and the others here who figure out what to do once you return to our world.
So if you are going to engage in some pointless retaliation here, I would have you do it away from her.
[Oh, my bad. HE STILL BRISTLED ANYWAY, just for different reasons or something
There is no one else alive who can get Suzaku to go from zero to RAEG oh god, the pun quite like you, Lulubelle. But he's not going to kill you. Again. Even though he probably looks like he's about to.]
What. That. Was. Was your handywork.
[Looks away. SO MANY THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW.]
We happened to bump into each other. During our conversation I ended up reminding her that I'm Japanese. It triggered her Geass, but she managed to fight it off.
Do you think I don't know that? Of all people, Suzaku. Do you think I don't know?
[Also trying to get a hold on his frenzy of emotions so that he can think now that Suzaku has confirmed his suspicions.]
Of course she doesn't.
She also never remembered what happened. I thought - it might still be active, but I hoped this place could neutralize it in some way. If she fought it off... maybe it can...
-What possessed you to mention being Japanese to her?
I know you know, its a question of how much you give a damn!
[He knows that's unfair, that somewhere behind the plans and schemes, Lelouch does care (even if he has infinitely fucked up ways of showing it), but his emotions are all over the place right now. It was getting harder and harder to even form a damn sentence.
There's a reason their friendship is based on Not Discussing Stuff.]
I mentioned it because-- because I had to know if she was really herself, or-- or if she was still--
[You can figure it out from there, bro. Just... pacing right now. So much pacing.]
So you tested her?! You selfish-What right do you have to question whether I care what happens to her? You know nothing of our lives here!
If you think I don't give a damn... then the hell did you follow me all this way? Why not just take me down as soon as we were beyond the cabin? Or maybe you realize that what you are really angry about is your own foolishness and powerlessness to fix it!
[Because he is very very tempted to grab a cornstalk and somehow murder you with it]
I LOVED HER!
She was the kindest, sweetest... and most ridiculously impulsive person I've ever met. And the rest of our world only remembers her as Princess Massacre. And I...
[lets out a breath, as some of the anger finally drains from him. There was a glance back in the general direction of the cabin]
She just seemed so... like herself. Like the girl I loved. Like that whole thing was never a part of her. I just wanted to make sure and...
[Follows that glance, trying to choke back the rest of his own frustration, at Suzaku, at the geass, at himself, as his perpetual inability to keep anyone he loves safe. Here or anywhere.
He turns away.]
I - want you to understand.
I know you loved her. I'm not blind.
And I will do everything in my power to set this right, something that was always impossible back home. I - can't take the curse away, Suzaku. It doesn't work like that. All I can do is help her understand it, and that is what I intend to do.
This is what you get when you mix four years with a LOT OF TRAUMAthekingsgambitAugust 28 2011, 02:19:33 UTC
[Starts at that, surprised to hear such a thing after the rage of just moments ago. A response sticks in his throat, as he stares at the back of Suzaku's head.]
Takes a sharp breath.]
Suzaku. We need to finish our talk. Outside.
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As you wish.
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I will back soon, Euphy. Get some rest.
[Annnnnd we are leading our highly volatile Zerozaku outside and definitely FAR AWAY from the damn cabin.]
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He does manage to give Euphie a soft squeeze on her shoulder, and his expression softens as he looks at her. That said, he doesn't bother to announce that he'll be back as well, since some part of him did recognize that it might be better to stay away, and he honestly didn't know what was about to happen between him and Lelouch.
Particularly since he's glaring daggers at him as he follows him to... wherever the hell they're going.]
Where are we headed?
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OOC: Also, the insisting with Cornelia was done via look only, no verbal communication. It's how those two roll.]
Somewhere whatever happened back there is not likely to be repeated. And somewhere I can find out what exactly that was without causing further damage.
[Whirls around, a dangerous and unsettled light in his eyes, as if just barely keeping panicked guilt and an encroaching madness at bay.]
Because, Suzaku, in case you have forgotten, it will have to be me and the others here who figure out what to do once you return to our world.
So if you are going to engage in some pointless retaliation here, I would have you do it away from her.
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There is no one else alive who can get Suzaku to go from zero to RAEG oh god, the pun quite like you, Lulubelle. But he's not going to kill you. Again. Even though he probably looks like he's about to.]
What. That. Was. Was your handywork.
[Looks away. SO MANY THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW.]
We happened to bump into each other. During our conversation I ended up reminding her that I'm Japanese. It triggered her Geass, but she managed to fight it off.
...she didn't want to hurt me. Or anyone.
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[Also trying to get a hold on his frenzy of emotions so that he can think now that Suzaku has confirmed his suspicions.]
Of course she doesn't.
She also never remembered what happened. I thought - it might still be active, but I hoped this place could neutralize it in some way. If she fought it off... maybe it can...
-What possessed you to mention being Japanese to her?
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[He knows that's unfair, that somewhere behind the plans and schemes, Lelouch does care (even if he has infinitely fucked up ways of showing it), but his emotions are all over the place right now. It was getting harder and harder to even form a damn sentence.
There's a reason their friendship is based on Not Discussing Stuff.]
I mentioned it because-- because I had to know if she was really herself, or-- or if she was still--
[You can figure it out from there, bro. Just... pacing right now. So much pacing.]
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So you tested her?! You selfish-What right do you have to question whether I care what happens to her? You know nothing of our lives here!
If you think I don't give a damn... then the hell did you follow me all this way? Why not just take me down as soon as we were beyond the cabin? Or maybe you realize that what you are really angry about is your own foolishness and powerlessness to fix it!
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[Because he is very very tempted to grab a cornstalk and somehow murder you with it]
I LOVED HER!
She was the kindest, sweetest... and most ridiculously impulsive person I've ever met. And the rest of our world only remembers her as Princess Massacre. And I...
[lets out a breath, as some of the anger finally drains from him. There was a glance back in the general direction of the cabin]
She just seemed so... like herself. Like the girl I loved. Like that whole thing was never a part of her. I just wanted to make sure and...
[And completely screwed up everything...]
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He turns away.]
I - want you to understand.
I know you loved her. I'm not blind.
And I will do everything in my power to set this right, something that was always impossible back home. I - can't take the curse away, Suzaku. It doesn't work like that. All I can do is help her understand it, and that is what I intend to do.
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[Continuing to look at the cabin. How could he have been so stupid?]
You should probably go check on her.
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I can't, so you have to do it for me.
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Good.
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