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[fuckyou_chorus]

[ You might notice more and more people getting oddly touchy with each other, along with their strange red welts and cuts on their wrists, fingers, necks, arms... they might scratch them occasionally. Except when in the presence of a special person, of course.

Today, however, Marcy is... knitting? So many red tentacle-warmers. Aww. ]

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[healingcock]

[it's definitely a weird thing to see the angel of healing with cuts and welts all over his arms, esp. since they're not reviving]

Ughhhhh.

[currently smoking like a chimney in the Mess Hall, not touching his food]

[watchmycannon]

[...WELL. I'LL JUST. SIT HERE? AWKWARDLY?]

I don't... know much about that. I didn't meet you until well after-- when you were good for one another. Itachi, perhaps--

[healingcock]

Oh screw Itachi, he can't help. Ughhhhh why are feelings happeniiiiiiiing.

[watchmycannon]

I've no idea, Raphael.

[healingcock]

... I'm sorry. I wish I could--stop this.

[watchmycannon]

[sighs, but reaches out to pet Raphael's head]

It's not you; it's Camp's doing.

[healingcock]

[doesn't seem as placated by that as usual]

It is me. It's always been me. I've been trying to get over him for the past year, and--and none of it's been working if this is what I turn into when he occupies my every thought.

[watchmycannon]

That he occupies your every thought after so long is unnatural, Raphael.

You've been better than this.

[healingcock]

He--fuck, David, I... I've never told you that--when I'm around him, he makes me feel... worthless. Like I'll never be good enough for him. And wanting to be good enough, trying to be good enough--that's what I tried to do, for so long.

[watchmycannon]

[hisses]

You are far from worthless, Raphael.

[healingcock]

[chuckles, humorlessly]

I don't know about that. But the thing is--when I was trying... to be a better person, it felt good. To do that. Even when I knew it would never be enough. So that's why I kept trying.

[watchmycannon]

[keeps petting]

It should feel good; being a good person, working towards that.

[healingcock]

The problem was... none of it was for myself. I only ever thought it would make Raikou happy.

[watchmycannon]

Ah.

[healingcock]

When I started trying for myself, it was... a lot better. I still didn't know how to feel, though.

[watchmycannon]

You were learning, though.