the wine talking:

[cams26]

i guess i always feel the need to write in this when life is beautiful. maybe i want to remember it or maybe i want to declare to myself that it's true. i have a board with a bunch of stuff thats important to me stuck to it; pictures, important dates of stuff to remmeber, the requrements for keeping your scholarship at new world, the monster's ball

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[sirauron]

Right on

[cams26]

=)

[thehopelesscaus]

but you need to do that in order to survive.
you can't be bitterly pessimistic; you'll only see the torrent of horrible things happening in the world.
but not overwhelming optimism, either; that only lasts so long before you finally get your spirit crushed.

i've written pma on my hand for almost 4 years to help with it. i used to remind people how beautiful life was on here to help with it.
and i find things get me a little more down when i don't do those things.

it's not escapism, it's not naive hope, it's not a feigned coping mechanism; it's part of humanity.
who wouldn't find to find joy in the little pleasures of the world?

"en það besta sem guð hefur skapað er nýr dagur."
beautiful days, my friend.

[cams26]

do we need to do it to survive? That's the conflict.
Are you saying optimism is a part of humanity? I don't know, Max. I don't really care one way or the other though; I think I'm okay with it.

[thehopelesscaus]

not necessarily complete optimism, but not complete pessimism; it's the balance

[mashioelle17]

i love you so much

[cams26]

it's a good thing 'cause i love you a whole hell of a lot as well.

[lupine313]

Wow, didn't see that last paragraph coming.

You know, I think that's a pretty interesting observation someone made. I never really thought of it myself. I think it's maybe not such a bad thing to analyze about oneself, but then again I'm all about analyzing anything and everything.

On the other hand...who really cares how much time you spend thinking about all the positive things in this world? The only point on focusing on the negative things is if you plan on doing something about them. Otherwise, if you want to be happy, then only think happy thoughts. They make you fly, afterall. (Peter Pan reference, but you knew that...right?)

~jeff~

[cams26]

just think lovely, wonderful thoughts and uuuupppppp you goooooooo!!

who really cares except you? it affects your life (which then affects those lives around you...) but it's your thoughts and your energy being either wisely used or unfortunately wasted.

[imbibevibes]

So nice to see that youve updated.

I feel like I have been damaged a lot, but it is my vein and huge fault that I think I have been more damaged than anyone else. Often I need to remind myself, "Isnt it beautiful that sometimes others get more beauty out of this world than you?" and by that I mean the ringer we are put through and the different scales in which it comes. For me real self acceptance comes with even bigger self doubts. This is kind of a messy string of thoughts, sorry, I always try to keep these responses brief and it usually makes me look like an idiot.

If a scary man were to say "I love you" before he said anything else, I think it would make me smile.

This is the most mature perception of happiness I have ever seen in you and I wish I would have written it because it is so damn good. You really got your point across.

love
Heather

[cams26]

I think to some extent everyone thinks they have been more damaged or they have it hardest or they're the exception to some other rule. I think somewhere eveyrone feels that but not everyone acts on those feelings. maybe.
self acceptance comes with even bigger self doubt. i don't know. im rolling your thoughts around for a bit. thinking of you lots, heather. lovelovelove