On a downer

[camzie]

So one of my friends has been diagnosed with Cancer.
He is 19, his dad has boule (sp) cancer as well. So his dad has only about 3 months to live.
He found a lump on one of his testicles and now in a space of 3 weeks it has spread to his boules (sp) and thyroid. His keemo (sp) tablets are making him sick. He has to go for shots tomorrow - 20 of the

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[liamsmummy]

I don't know what to say, other than I feel your pain and know exactly what you are going through.

A very good friend of mind died at 18 from cancer. She was in and out of remission from the age of 14. Myself and a handful of friends where there through all the ups and downs. She died not long before my 18th birthday - I was the last one of our group to turn 18 and she kept telling me she was hanging on for me - but she just couldn't hold out anymore.

In his eyes, be strong - but make sure you let your pain out, you will need to.

Thinking of you,
Kyles xx

[camzie]

You know its funny you say to let my pain out. Since we found out i treated it as thought I didn’t believe it. So it wasn’t as much an issue for me - and I have been the one people come crying to. And then last week Ben passed out at work and started vomiting heaps of blood, and I was the one to hospitalise him and help him. The next day people rang me all day crying etc. and that night from about 7.30pm to 10pm i balled my eyes out. It felt so good. And I'm glad I did it. But i think its back to the strong Carms for everyone and to help them hold up. Ben told me he loves how I don’t look at him like others. Everyone looks at him as though he is already dead, yet i treat him as though nothing is wrong. And he loves that. So I’m going to keep doing that for him.

It’s hard - but its friendships that help so much!!!

Miss ya
xxx

P.S Sarah says Hi!!!