No matter what.

[can_t_see_it]

No matter what I do, I don't think I am capable of feeling complete in this adult life that I've made for myself.  For some reason, my dream of having a child and a marriage are different than the reality of the two.  Technically, I am not married yet but there is a rock on my finger and the fruit of my loin is sleeping unsoundly in the next room

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[aestheticlove81]

welcome to the world of nathan and jessica except he'd spoon me until he knew i was asleep and then he'd roll over. id still love the kid until i die, unfortunately. i know that if you guys talk it through than you'll do fine. just take sure you take your time, if the wedding doesn't come at the end of the summer like you are planning now, babygirl its quite alright. do what feels right, make sure that COMMUNICATION is key right now. know that im always here for you and i love you. things will be amazing no matter what your decision be, mwah. <3

[aestheticlove81]

ps you're always beautiful jmoscribble and don't sell yourself short because when Em gets older ill make sure to do girly things to reunite you and your former self... one step closer with those Buds ;) mwah. iloveyou.

[can_t_see_it]

Thanks for the messages, Jess. BMB and I talked...like, we're really good at talking, it's the action part of the conversations that we both have trouble with. We both say we'll try to pay more attn to the subject at hand and then the dust settles after the gun fight and we're right back where we started. Don't get me wrong, this isn't always what happens, it is just what happens when I write about it in here. LoL :) But you are right about the wedding thing, we have a million and one other things to do right now, the wedding will happen, we just don't know when. xoxoxox to you and your love.

[anonymous]

I LOVE AND NEED YOU!!! >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> <3amber

[can_t_see_it]

Thank you!!! ;-)