I was shaving my legs tonight and I was thinking about when Toni told me she had cut herself and thinking about the tone of her voice and the way she said it and the fake passiveness in her voice and it made me want to throw up. Not because she was hurting herself and I don't want her too and not because I get annoyed with her a lot it's because I ( Read more... )

I have been having the weirdest dreams lately. And there's three things wrong with that: I usually only dream once a month, I only dream about super-important people or nobodys, and there's disturbing! I had the weirdest, most.. detailed.. very long dream last night. And there's another strange thing, I've been dreaming a lot about Liam lately. ( Read more... )

I've been such a loner lately. I don't know why. I think Toni thinks I'm mad at her because whenever she calls I find some way to get out of the conversation within five minutes and.. yeah. I feel like explaining to her but I.. don't. I just feel.. crappy.

Last ngiht was actually fun. It was the community band christmas party and I thought it would be really boring and all the kdis would be sitting around like.. um. Bored. :) But it was fun. Mellissa, Lisa, Jessie, Audrey and I were sitting there eating and we were talkign about Aaron, because Jessie like Aaron, and he was sitting with Jake and ( Read more... )

I came to conclusion last night because I was sad and I was wondering why I've been sad lately, (because I have) and I noticed that usually I enjoy comedic TV but that lately I've been watching nothing but comedy and can't exactly bear to pay attention to anything not comedy. And I realized I'm (subconsciously) trying to keep it balanced. I usually ( Read more... )

I'm sad lately. I've been thinking about my grandma a lot lately. Maybe it's just catching up with me now, I don't know..
But I've also been a lot more me lately. I just feel like me. A lot. And it's good. Because I act more like me and I ... like it ( Read more... )

I'm having an "intellectual" day or something. I was just pondering to Sarah about the insanity of how much we use the word 'the'. And if you just look at it and 8think* about it it doesn't even sound like a word and it looks Greek ( Read more... )

I've had that lingering feeling of.. just.. not.. being right all day. Today kind of sucked. I think I did all right on my Literature test today ( Read more... )

My dad's going to quit his job. I don't really feel like explaining a church budget, so I'll sum it up with they're increasing the dumb stuff, like the secretary who doesn't do anything's salary, and decreasing the important stuff, like.. my dad's salary and missions and stuff. He gets a $1,200 raise every year for the cost of living (Ministers do ( Read more... )

Needy children will get good presents this year. My mother and I made sure of that ( Read more... )