just give me something to believe
Since work readjusted their internet filters and I can now access livejournal again, I thought I'd give you guys a quick update. (Not that I usually have any actual time to go on lj when I'm at work, but right now I need to do a quick vent/get things out of my head, so here I am.)
First, let me be Yeah, so I knew it might take a while for my body to adjust to being off the birth control, but I was hoping for a little more predictability. HA. So, my first cycle off the pill was 35 days long. Okay, fine, I can live with that. Second cycle, 35 days came and went with no sign of a period. We got into 40+ days and my cycle tracker app on my phone started giving me super helpful messages saying "oh hey, your period is late, we think you might be preggers!", which I kept ignoring because I was really pretty sure that I was not. By day 48 or so, I suspected that my period was on its way, but was also starting to worry that maybe I somehow had magically gotten pregnant, despite all of the logical reasons I didn't think I could be. I did finally get my period on Friday, after a freaking 51 day cycle. FIFTY ONE DAYS. Jesus. Do you know what kind of period you get when you go 51 days without one? ALL THE BLOOD. All of it. Everywhere. Such a mess. So yes, now I am in cycle 3 sans artificial hormones, and I'm hoping that my body will figure its shit out and do something that approximates regularity so I might have some small chance of predicting when things are going to happen. Because, for real, the uncertainty bit can suck it.
Otherwise, work has been work. Today has been a particularly annoying day, but overall, I'm feeling less stressed than I was a week or so ago. I'm just extra tired today and feel like several people are doing a poor job of communicating with me about things that they need my input on or meetings they expect me to go to, and blah blah blah. I vented already to a coworker about situations that were frustrating me, and that helped a bit. I'd vent here, but really, I'd have to go into too much detail to explain what I'm irritated about and it's really not worth it. Tomorrow will be better, hopefully, and today I just need to focus on getting done the next report. Six left! I can do it. This may be the first year that I am really fully looking forward to summer and the school year being over. It's just been such a shit year all around. I'm ready for a break. As far as catsitting goes, I'm still not sure what's up. I gave the woman a week before emailing her to follow up. She apologized for the delay, said she'd contact me by the weekend, which she did to set up a meeting, noting that she was also interviewing someone else who'd been recommended by a friend. (Ugh.) I responded with a time on Tuesday evening that worked for me, didn't hear back from her with her address, so I emailed again Tuesday morning to confirm. She emailed at pretty much the same time (without seeing my email) asking if she could get back to me tonight about rescheduling for tomorrow, because their vacation plans were now in question and she should know for sure by late tonight. Soooo who knows what's going to happen at this point, but I have thoroughly lost all hope that this is actually going to come through. I probably shouldn't have gotten my hopes up in the first place, but now I guess if it does magically work out, at least I'll be pleasantly surprised.
In happier news, the girls and I are registered for this year's TTC knitalong, which I am very much looking forward to. It's happening on July 20th this year, which strikes me as a perfect excuse to buy myself some birthday yarn! On last year's knitalong, I bought the yarn for my sweater as my birthday present to myself, so I'm thinking this year I will buy the yarn for a beautiful cardigan I've been dying to make, and thus make this an annual tradition. :D Plus more friends are coming this year, so it will be even more fun! Registration was a bit hectic and half the teams were full within hours of it opening, but the 5 of us who are going were all able to get on the same team. I can't wait! Right now, I'm still working on my green lace scarf (it's about halfway done, but I'm not hugely motivated because I'm just a little tired of the pattern), and I've started working on a pair of socks that I am enjoying so far, and think will look really cool when they're finished. So yay knitting!
Oh, right! The other thing I wanted to tell you guys was that I have finally caught up with the rest of the world and gotten hooked on Firefly. Brad was watching it on Netflix the other night, so we watched 3 or 4 episodes together and I was totally sucked in. By the end of the second episode I was hardly paying any attention to my knitting (mostly stockinette, so I was okay), and flailing at the tv screen when things happened. So now I'm working my way through the rest of the episodes (which Brad had already seen before anyway), and I can't wait to see what happens, even though I know there's only 14 episodes. Then I'll have to find the movie and watch that, too! But yeah, even though I am YEARS behind on this one, I totally get why everyone loves this show, and why they were all so pissed off when it got canceled.
Okay, now I am more distracted by work and less focused on this, so I should probably get back to my report writing. Hope you're all doing well!
First, let me be Yeah, so I knew it might take a while for my body to adjust to being off the birth control, but I was hoping for a little more predictability. HA. So, my first cycle off the pill was 35 days long. Okay, fine, I can live with that. Second cycle, 35 days came and went with no sign of a period. We got into 40+ days and my cycle tracker app on my phone started giving me super helpful messages saying "oh hey, your period is late, we think you might be preggers!", which I kept ignoring because I was really pretty sure that I was not. By day 48 or so, I suspected that my period was on its way, but was also starting to worry that maybe I somehow had magically gotten pregnant, despite all of the logical reasons I didn't think I could be. I did finally get my period on Friday, after a freaking 51 day cycle. FIFTY ONE DAYS. Jesus. Do you know what kind of period you get when you go 51 days without one? ALL THE BLOOD. All of it. Everywhere. Such a mess. So yes, now I am in cycle 3 sans artificial hormones, and I'm hoping that my body will figure its shit out and do something that approximates regularity so I might have some small chance of predicting when things are going to happen. Because, for real, the uncertainty bit can suck it.
Otherwise, work has been work. Today has been a particularly annoying day, but overall, I'm feeling less stressed than I was a week or so ago. I'm just extra tired today and feel like several people are doing a poor job of communicating with me about things that they need my input on or meetings they expect me to go to, and blah blah blah. I vented already to a coworker about situations that were frustrating me, and that helped a bit. I'd vent here, but really, I'd have to go into too much detail to explain what I'm irritated about and it's really not worth it. Tomorrow will be better, hopefully, and today I just need to focus on getting done the next report. Six left! I can do it. This may be the first year that I am really fully looking forward to summer and the school year being over. It's just been such a shit year all around. I'm ready for a break. As far as catsitting goes, I'm still not sure what's up. I gave the woman a week before emailing her to follow up. She apologized for the delay, said she'd contact me by the weekend, which she did to set up a meeting, noting that she was also interviewing someone else who'd been recommended by a friend. (Ugh.) I responded with a time on Tuesday evening that worked for me, didn't hear back from her with her address, so I emailed again Tuesday morning to confirm. She emailed at pretty much the same time (without seeing my email) asking if she could get back to me tonight about rescheduling for tomorrow, because their vacation plans were now in question and she should know for sure by late tonight. Soooo who knows what's going to happen at this point, but I have thoroughly lost all hope that this is actually going to come through. I probably shouldn't have gotten my hopes up in the first place, but now I guess if it does magically work out, at least I'll be pleasantly surprised.
In happier news, the girls and I are registered for this year's TTC knitalong, which I am very much looking forward to. It's happening on July 20th this year, which strikes me as a perfect excuse to buy myself some birthday yarn! On last year's knitalong, I bought the yarn for my sweater as my birthday present to myself, so I'm thinking this year I will buy the yarn for a beautiful cardigan I've been dying to make, and thus make this an annual tradition. :D Plus more friends are coming this year, so it will be even more fun! Registration was a bit hectic and half the teams were full within hours of it opening, but the 5 of us who are going were all able to get on the same team. I can't wait! Right now, I'm still working on my green lace scarf (it's about halfway done, but I'm not hugely motivated because I'm just a little tired of the pattern), and I've started working on a pair of socks that I am enjoying so far, and think will look really cool when they're finished. So yay knitting!
Oh, right! The other thing I wanted to tell you guys was that I have finally caught up with the rest of the world and gotten hooked on Firefly. Brad was watching it on Netflix the other night, so we watched 3 or 4 episodes together and I was totally sucked in. By the end of the second episode I was hardly paying any attention to my knitting (mostly stockinette, so I was okay), and flailing at the tv screen when things happened. So now I'm working my way through the rest of the episodes (which Brad had already seen before anyway), and I can't wait to see what happens, even though I know there's only 14 episodes. Then I'll have to find the movie and watch that, too! But yeah, even though I am YEARS behind on this one, I totally get why everyone loves this show, and why they were all so pissed off when it got canceled.
Okay, now I am more distracted by work and less focused on this, so I should probably get back to my report writing. Hope you're all doing well!