This Person I Am

[canadianrambler]

I'm getting a new livejournal. This one.. has too much of my past. I'll tell you what it is when I get the chance.


Saturday mornings and a soccer game
Saturday nights and TV reruns
Sunday mornings and a dayless day
Where did I go?

My laughter, my smile, my attitude
My friends and my charm, my happy moods
Science talks with dad, my use of "dude"
Replaced by confusion, a girl who's nude and rude
Who am I now, no idea who.

This person I am just needs to go away
This person I am is not who I want to be
This person I am is just so angry
She's stubborn as hell but really needs to change
She's stubborn but has got to change.

Losing friends like money at casinos
But she's got to pay the rent
Her bank acount is going on empty
What she has left is only what she hasn't spent.
But really she don't have a cent.

This person I am just needs to go away
This person I am is not who I want to be
This person I am is just so angry
She's stubborn as hell but really needs to change
She's stubborn but has got to change.

Is she taking life too seriously?
Is she losing life too easily?
What is wrong?
How do I change?
Where am I?
Who is this stranger?
Who is this stranger?

I've no idea who I am and its killing me.
And at the same time, I feel dead already.
I do not understand how my reflection can be
Exactly who I never thought I'd see.

I give up. Let me live in my decay.
That's a lie. I would die before I saw the day
I let myself pretend to be okay.
I just want this all to go away.

This person I am just needs to go away
This person I am is not who I want to be
This person I am is just so angry
She's stubborn as hell but really needs to change
She's stubborn but has got to change.