anyone experiencing emotion such as this, one that keeps you up at night, wondering what could have taken a diffrent turn. what words were said that changed the fate of smiles that should have come? the walks home take longer because my feet become heavy and the years when id skip home embracing the sunlight seem so immature to act upon. i want to ( Read more... )

i miss you.
everyday.
every second.
every moment.

i got a morning call from shannon and my bible class wondering if i was alright. maggie was crying in the backround cause for some reason she thought i killed myself. ME? KILL MYSELF?! NO!my valentines day was spent home..sick. getting iritated by the repeated 'i love yous' from the lifetime channel. i was sleeping a good portion of the day until ( Read more... )

how can someone go from undying love, to rare phone calls lacking emotion? rare visits lacking passion? rare hellos with common goodbyes? how does one deal with being in love with someone whose never there? rude awakenings when the sun rises and yet again, it wasent a dream. dragging on are the days spent missing you. growing old my eyes, but ( Read more... )

this friday im planning to go to new moon again with some familiar faces, and hope some people i met there last week remember my face as well. school is going better...a little smoother. but that dosent go alongside with how my life outside of school is doing. i smile a little more, not cry as much, look forward to tomorrow because it may include ( Read more... )

well..this weekend has been pretty fun. hung out with katelind all thursday afternoon/night and skipped friday because it was nesasary lol. then later on that day i took a bus to meet julie and rachel in downtown hollywood, where i called my sister and she picked me up and took me out to lunch. later on that night we went out to sushi dinner with a ( Read more... )

alright so, i feel the need to rant to myself since i have no one else to talk to....
i'm feeling selfish
rude
ignorant
brilliant
ugly
disgusting
beautiful
and nice

But selfishness is the one sticking its finger down my throat....
I want to say good morning to you
I want to kiss you goodnight
I want to know how your day is going
I want to know if ( Read more... )

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you ( Read more... )

well last night, i rode my bike from my house to carlas house..i never realized how cold it was out side, or how long of a bike ride ( Read more... )

today was ehhh ( Read more... )