so today i will be writing in the color of my hair. or at least some of the tips of it. i am alive. i have a job. i have a bank account. i like a boy. i'm pursuing art. i have a fantabulous thing planned for halloween. i can't breathe because of the butterflies in my stomach. i have heart problems. i am addicted to energy drinks. i cannot survive ( Read more... )

so it would appear i now have a job and a boyfriend. good lord. sometimes i think i function better when i fiend for a b/f than when i actually have one and as for a job, yep just like the rest of everyone i work at stop n shop. in evan's dept i might add. we're in florist :-D :X we're flippin kool you know you love it.

just when i thought shit was goin well wit my mom nooooo she goes and fucking threatens me again CHRIST JUST FUCKING STAY STABLE. PLEASE. god i don't want this anymore just make it all fucking balance out. i'm tired of this roller coaster shit. i want to stop dying just a little bit more everytime i come home and talk to my mom, i want to stop ( Read more... )

OMFG so against me/jimmy eat world/greenday concert FUCKING AMAZING yeaa. lots of screaming. at one point billy joe had us reppeating what he was saying and he started moaning then he started to rub himself then he got into his pants and like orgasmed. it was beautious. god that man is fucking incredible and just the concert itself was like ( Read more... )

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overwhelmed with sadness i realize i need to leave. for once in my life i admit that i need to move but i can't because i swore to myself i wouldn't leave in the middle of highschool. god ironic how the one time that i need to leave i can't. catch 22..the story of my life. i saw chelsea today, she drove by and gave me this look. well HA big fucking ( Read more... )

i saw the rolling stones in concert the other night because some guy at a karaoke bar invited us to see them. fate is being strange to me lately. today i was walking to stop n shop to meet sam and earlier i'd been calling evan to see what he was up to and as i approach i see someone and i'm like that's evan and sure enough he's calling me and i'm ( Read more... )

i'm a prick. i'm a bad bad horrible person. i help my friends and i now want to hurl bricks at every single one of em except like 2. i'm a fucking prick. i'm selfish. i'm obsessive. i'm violent. i'm fat. i'm not perfect. i'm loud. i'm obnoxious. i'm bitchy. i complain a damn lot. i'm pessimistic and depressing. i'm fucking lame. i'm angry. i can't ( Read more... )

i feel like ass because i haven't seen my friend in 2 years he comes down and basically wants to leave the second he gets here, as if seeing me for the first time in 2 years doesn't fucking matter because whatever the fuck else is better. he got mellowed out tho by the time he left today so that was pretty kool i guess. he apologized for being an ( Read more... )

dear heart ( Read more... )