Sounds like Shaun had a very sensible argument, however confusing. It appears that he just wants to be completely trusted, and he isn't really getting that from you, according to what he said; but then again, at the beginning, it sounds like he's just not wanting to be in a relationship at all, soo... idk. boys are confusing... but basically because they ARE confused. hah
Maybe leaving the college will be good for you... of course, the readjusting would be total crap, but in the long run...? How many years do you have left? Because if it's more than just this one, it might be something to consider. Otherwise, maybe things will change around there, in just a year...? Anyways, just try to let God pick out the guys for you- I'm sure He won't disappoint you. ♥ Praying for ya.
Boys...are highly confusing. haha Not that I need to tell you that! :)
Transferring is looking like a good option more often than not. And if I only had like, a year left, I'd stay- but I have 2 and a half years left. And I'm just not sure this is where I belong- or even where God wants me anymore. I guess I'll just pray about it and try to keep my ears open.
Thanks for your prayers, girlie! They're always appreciated.
Lindenwood is a nice school. It's not far from my Grandpa's house in St. Charles...like five minutes away...if that. My family was strongly pushing me to go there if I didn't go to MSU. It would've saved my parents a ton of money if I lived with my Gramps. Plus, I had a ton of cousins who graduated from there and they had hella connections for me. If you decided to transfer there, you won't regret it. Kappler and Israel are there! At least you'd know peeps!
Oh and I'm thinking I'll be staying St. Louis after I get out of school here...If LA's anything like Vancouver, I'm not going to be happy with it. Plus, right now there are alot writing jobs available so Mom is keeping an eye for me to break in there. So we'll see!
Looks like we're both in transition and looking for what will make us happy. It's good to be selfish every once in awhile. You can't make others happy, if you're not happy. That's been my motto the last year and it's worked!
I think Shaun is confused about what he really wants. As much as it hurts, it's better if you're not in a relationship with him most likely. You deserve someone who wants to be with you and in time he'll show up, have a pair, and never let you go. Until then, dream of Orlando Bloom ( just an example because he's mine!), or whoever is the hot guy right now and enjoy life with friends and kitkat! Cats are a wonderful companion.
I love you and I'm here even though I'm so far away.
Transfering might be a good idea if you feel unhappy with Springfield and MSU. I would miss you, but I'm not in school anymore so when I'm in MO I'll just have to travel to Kirksville. No problem! You, alone, control your destiny. Take control of it and you'll go far.
You always make me feel better. Even about stupid boy problems. I love you back!!
Tranferring.... is a definitely possibility. I haven't told anyone here yet, because they don't want me to leave at all. I mean, I know they love me, but they want me here-- not where I'd excell the most.
I'm looking into schools with good music programs and a fantastic SAI chapter. Because as much as it drives me crazy sometimes, SAI is what keeps me sane. I love my sisters. :) but you know that.So, currently, my top schools are William Jewell, Truman and Lindenwood, because I know they all offer what I want in a schoool. So, maybe if I go to Lindenwood, you won't have to drive as far as Truman or William jewell. haha
I see his point about not wanting to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't completely trust him. You don't want to get hurt... you are scared because you don't have complete trust for him. It isn't your fault that you don't but he sees that you don't. I can't be in any sort of a relationship without mutal trust so I completely understand his arguement. Telling someone you are scared to date them = trust problem. You guys seem to have communication problems and different views on what makes trust and a relationship. Those are things that probably won't get better with time. You should really try to get out. wishing for guys to grow a pair isn't a good wish. meet half way. PLUS you gotta stop compairing them to old guys (for good or bad lol) as far as the school goes, I say you look at it this way... will you have time to adjust and enjoy it? if next year is your last year, don't do it. You will have enough time to get used to it and then you'll be gone :-(
School....Yeah, if I only had one more year, I'd just stick it out and stay here. But I have 2 and a half years left, and I'm not sure I want to graduate from here. I don't think this is where I belong anymore.
Boys... well.... We definitely don't communicate well. I agree 110% percent.
And growing a pair? Well... I feel like I've already gone 100%, instead of going 50 and waiting for him. I feel like I've done the whole "I like you, and I want to be with you" step and he just sat back on his honches and didn't do anything about it, even though he apparently talks about me all the time and "really likes" me.
I'm just not really sure what's going on anymore, that's all.
*foofhugs* That's not too long, really. Just a variety of things. Boys... all I can say is that it is simpler without them; yes, maybe he deserves complete trust - but only if you're sure you admire him enough to do so.
Lindenwood has SAI, music ed, and marching band. And that one trumpeter that you enjoy. And St. Louis has easier access to Southwind and other corps than Kirksville.
haha I'm definitely looking into it. Right now, Truman, William Jewell and Lindenwood are at the top of the list. I looove your SAI chapter... so that might be a plus. Do you love marching band there?
It wasn't so great this past year... my freshman year I quite enjoyed it, but this year was more 'neergh'. I think next year might be better; a lot of people graduate this May and that'll leave fresh faces in charge, and hopefully some better attitude. Mellos have fun here, anyway
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I know, girl, and I've been thinking about this for a long time-- even last year during this time. Maybe it's just a hard time of year for me... I don't know. What I do know is that I haven't been happy here for a long time. The only class I actually enjoy is my conducting class. I don't like conducting styles here in the band program. I don't really feel like I've been learning anything all semester
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Maybe leaving the college will be good for you... of course, the readjusting would be total crap, but in the long run...? How many years do you have left? Because if it's more than just this one, it might be something to consider. Otherwise, maybe things will change around there, in just a year...? Anyways, just try to let God pick out the guys for you- I'm sure He won't disappoint you. ♥ Praying for ya.
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Transferring is looking like a good option more often than not. And if I only had like, a year left, I'd stay- but I have 2 and a half years left. And I'm just not sure this is where I belong- or even where God wants me anymore. I guess I'll just pray about it and try to keep my ears open.
Thanks for your prayers, girlie! They're always appreciated.
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Oh and I'm thinking I'll be staying St. Louis after I get out of school here...If LA's anything like Vancouver, I'm not going to be happy with it. Plus, right now there are alot writing jobs available so Mom is keeping an eye for me to break in there. So we'll see!
Looks like we're both in transition and looking for what will make us happy. It's good to be selfish every once in awhile. You can't make others happy, if you're not happy. That's been my motto the last year and it's worked!
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I'm so lucky to have you in my life!
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I love you and I'm here even though I'm so far away.
Transfering might be a good idea if you feel unhappy with Springfield and MSU. I would miss you, but I'm not in school anymore so when I'm in MO I'll just have to travel to Kirksville. No problem! You, alone, control your destiny. Take control of it and you'll go far.
Miss you!
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Tranferring.... is a definitely possibility. I haven't told anyone here yet, because they don't want me to leave at all. I mean, I know they love me, but they want me here-- not where I'd excell the most.
I'm looking into schools with good music programs and a fantastic SAI chapter. Because as much as it drives me crazy sometimes, SAI is what keeps me sane. I love my sisters. :) but you know that.So, currently, my top schools are William Jewell, Truman and Lindenwood, because I know they all offer what I want in a schoool. So, maybe if I go to Lindenwood, you won't have to drive as far as Truman or William jewell. haha
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You guys seem to have communication problems and different views on what makes trust and a relationship. Those are things that probably won't get better with time. You should really try to get out.
wishing for guys to grow a pair isn't a good wish. meet half way. PLUS you gotta stop compairing them to old guys (for good or bad lol)
as far as the school goes, I say you look at it this way... will you have time to adjust and enjoy it? if next year is your last year, don't do it. You will have enough time to get used to it and then you'll be gone :-(
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Boys... well.... We definitely don't communicate well. I agree 110% percent.
And growing a pair? Well... I feel like I've already gone 100%, instead of going 50 and waiting for him. I feel like I've done the whole "I like you, and I want to be with you" step and he just sat back on his honches and didn't do anything about it, even though he apparently talks about me all the time and "really likes" me.
I'm just not really sure what's going on anymore, that's all.
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That's not too long, really. Just a variety of things.
Boys... all I can say is that it is simpler without them; yes, maybe he deserves complete trust - but only if you're sure you admire him enough to do so.
Lindenwood has SAI, music ed, and marching band. And that one trumpeter that you enjoy. And St. Louis has easier access to Southwind and other corps than Kirksville.
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Right now, Truman, William Jewell and Lindenwood are at the top of the list.
I looove your SAI chapter... so that might be a plus.
Do you love marching band there?
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