i want my summer fling like NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ( Read more... )

my parents think my love spell shimmering lotion from victoria secret smells like cigs...and have giving me so much shit. granted i have been smoking a bit lately...but more often than not they tell me i'm smoking even when i'm not...because of course i'm a pathological liar...and the devil's spawn.

i just want people to understand that they are not alone.
and that i will always be there for them.

i keep seeing dead birds. i'm not talking about roadkill. they're randomly on the ground...in the grass, on the sidewalk, on a trail...i get grossed out everytime. i want to puke. is this an omen for things to come? i dunno...but whatever it is it needs to stop. i don't handle dead things very well.

so i've started to draw again. a long lost love of mine. but my once happy works are now depressing, morbid, and distraught. is that saying something about me? my future, the present, my past....

i need to learn how to paint...then my drawings can come to life.

help.

uncomfortable in my own skin.

so yesterday i was perfectly fine....feeling good...by the end of the day my throat hurt a little little bit but it was more like you've smoked to much today hurt....minus the fact that i had maybe two that day if even that ( Read more... )

shit son...i just trimmed my own bangs....

this equals big deal cause i generally want to cry when my hair + cut are in the same sentence.

ahhh sweet procrastination...this is what finals drive me to do. push my limits in non-academic ways.

i think the highlight of my weekend was going to the gas station at like 1 in the morning to get beer and champagne and then getting hit on by the guy, not getting my id checked, and THEN getting a fucking discount at the gas station! apparently he didn't want to break my five...so he gave it back to me. WHAT THE FUCK. who does that. i mean really ( Read more... )

AHHHHHH design project number TWO is due. FUCK FUCK FUCK ( Read more... )