i'm happy :)

well things have been crazy lately

me and kyle broke up
things werent working out the way they should have been for a while
so we both decided we should be apart
and take time to think about other things

i dont know

i had an anxiety attack thursday
i was dealing with a bunch of stuff all at one time
and then ashleigh started yelling at me for no ( Read more... )

wow when's the last time i updated this thing?

it seems as though lately there just arent enough hours in the day
and this is actually true.

im so caught up with my life and everything i have to do day to day
i dont get that much fun time
i dont even think i know what fun time is anymore

my grandma passed away this week
she was sick for a while and we ( Read more... )

well a lot has gone on since the last time i updated

kyle and i had a chance to really talk this weekend
and we sorted a lot of misunderstandings and stuff out
it was nice :]

i got a car
it's a 2000 white ford escort coupe :p
and i got 2 new back tires
and it had new breaks put it before i got it
and i went to kyle's(my second family :] ) on sunday and ( Read more... )

i had a very nice day today :D

i've been in pretty good spirits since we got back into school
and then this weekend hit
and now im all pissed again

im dreading finals
and all the cheer competitions in the midst of them.

i slept in until 1:30 today
and i went to bed at 3
which has been unusual for me lately

i was in a horrible mood last night
and i woke up in a mood not much better ( Read more... )

it's 2006
whoopie.

i'm hoping this year will bring some sort of a change to my life
but it hasn't so far

i'm really just not happy overall
things that used to make me so happy just aren't anymore

i don't know what's wrong with me

i feel so useless and boring
and sad and not good

and i feel like nobody would understand
and they just see me as some sort ( Read more... )

simply out of boredom and curiosity
merry christmas :]

DIRECTIONS;;
Go to the first entry of each month in 2005
[use older journals if needed]
copy the first few sentences for each month.
read/enjoy.
:]

( just click it :P )

The past year

~January~
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? no actually
2. Who kissed you at midnight? kyle :) and then my dad came to see me
3. Does it snow where you live? are you aware that i live in michigan?
4. Do you like hot chocolate? i love hot chocolate :)
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? no

~ ( Read more... )

Not a lot to say these days

We get out of school by Wednesday
But i have cheer just about everyday during break

I had a really nice time with Kyle today
Even though he only stayed for a little bit
He was being really sweet and it made me happy
I cried when he left
Say i'm stupid for crying
Or say that it won't ever last just because we're a "high school ( Read more... )