Hmm. I'm at work today, sitting upstairs in the calm just above everyone running around one flight below. It's surreal.
Listening to the Crane Wife. Yeah. For some reason, I've never felt the future like this. I've never felt like everything is so long and so short such as this. I've never dreaded and smiled so for things to come.

It's getting closer and closer to so many things: summer, Christt leaving, my own graduation, next year. Its hard for me to believe that this year is over. That I've been at Evergreen for two years. This was the year of Christt. It seems like I did so much more last year, but I think that's because I went to India ( Read more... )

Wow. I just got back from Canada and am still blown away. I feel like I learned so much, not just about psychology, but about people and myself. It was such a good experience. I almost don't know what to say about it, other than when I walked into class today and saw all of those people again, I couldn't help laughing because we all knew so much ( Read more... )

All right. I am totally heartbroken and feel like bursting in to tears every ten minutes ( Read more... )

Well...I'm back from India. Surprisingly, it wasn't that good of a trip. Or maybe it was just what it was...a trip. It was really hard and really beautiful and really telling at the same time. I made really good friends and had some amazing new experiences, but I also cried so much and felt like my heart was breaking. I wouldn't take it back of ( Read more... )

I haven't slept tonight, and am calmly waiting for my airoporter. I am so tired. I feel sad, not to be leaving this place but because I am missing something. I also feel truly alive for the first time in a really long time.

Peace

Okay, So my power is still out. What the fuck!!! This is the sixth day without heat, health, hot water and therefore showers, lights, or the opprotunity to make food. I would really like to shower, make some groats and have some tea. It was okay the first few days and nights, but now I just want to be able to SEE my apartment so I can pack for ( Read more... )

I am not having a good day
But now, two days after, I am feeling better.
ARFHHHHGH

Hmmmm. So the quarter is ending and that is crazy. All of my friends are scattering to the winds, and so am I. It's beautiful how far life carries us, I'm just really hoping that I have the strength to keep in contact with all of them. That's my biggest downfall, being fickle. I'm good at forgetting the past, amazing at moving on, almost horrible ( Read more... )

SO right now I am procrastinating in my mothers office. I'm supposed to be writing my seminar paper for next week, but I can't focus. I feel a bit out of it, a bit lonely, and bit sad, and a bit sick. Add those bits all together and you my have some idea of me. I came home last night, or this morning, at about 4:30 am after playing with my friends ( Read more... )