well i was going to post to appologize, but i see u don't care. the past three years have apparently been for nothing. through all of this, i have one thing to say... i promised u that i would be there for you to talk to, cry on, and be there to pick u up when you fell; BUT APPARENTLY THAT MEANS NOTHING TO YOU! I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING FOR YOU, AND I DID THIS ALL FOR AN IMATURE CHILD! I FOUGHT FOR A CHILD! I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU, AND YOU DON'T CARE AT ALL... I PROMISED YOU THAT I WOULD KILL FOR YOU AND I WOULD DIE FOR YOU--I TOLD COUNTLESS FRIENDS TO FUCK OFF BECAUSE YOU NEEDED ME AT THAT MOMENT IN TIME... I LOST COUNTLESS GIRLFRIENDS BECAUSE I WAS DEVOTED TO MAKING YOU HAPPY--BUT IT WASN'T ENOUGH... PSYKES WAS CREATED BY YOUR HANDS AND HE IS DEAD BY YOUR HANDS--THIS IS THE DECREE... THUS IT IS DONE... i'm tired of not being able to have my ever after because all these people hate me for everything i've ever done... i'm sorry, but you have caused me to feel things i have never felt before--i regret meeting you... you've been nothing
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unknown truths...shaderedemtionMarch 3 2006, 06:12:06 UTC
i know what i posted earlier will probably crush you, but i didn't mean it... i wasn't myself... i was told by thomas that i wrote it and i didn't even realize i did... i wasn't trying to make ur decisions for you, but rather was trying to help you to get ur answer. i just wanted you to know that i was there at the bottom incase u fell, and the top to congratulate you for doing the right thing... i didn't mean to make u mad or upset, i didn't even know i did something wrong... i'm just trying to be the friend i set out to be, but i was so confused... i talked to mama hawk yesterday, and she helped me realize a few good points: 1) if you want me to know whats going on, you will tell me in your own time; 2) you probably don't even fully understand whats going on yet; 3) you don't like being pressed so stop asking questions... i'm emotionally dead because of all the pain i've been caused since those pathetic 12 years ago... i told u i would tell u all that was going on in my head at one point, and u may find out very soon, but i'm jus
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