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How is it you can look forward to and dread something so much all at once?

Apr 16, 2006 17:04

After running around and getting everything we needed for tonight and putting it all away in the appropriate spots, short of the DVDs, which I left on the counter, I told Logan I was going to call my dad and disappeared into the bedroom. It wasn't like I was hiding what we were going to talk about from Logan. He pretty much knew anyway. How things ( Read more... )

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logan_echolls April 17 2006, 00:52:00 UTC

I paused the game I'd been playing the moment Veronica came out of the bedroom and slipped in beside me, curling up at my side. Putting my controller down on the table in front of the couch, I wrapped an arm around her so she could settle in closer against me. I hadn't heard any of the conversation, nor had I eavesdropped, but Veronica's eyes were reddened slight with tears she had already cried or tears she was about to let out - tears she was probably holding back just because I was here, but tears she knew she couldn't hide ( ... )

renewedsoul_v April 17 2006, 20:52:43 UTC

"I don't think I could this without you." I whispered, letting out a breath before settling more into his arms. It wasn't as though I lacked the skills. That wasn't it. It was just even harder than I'd expected it to be to be so far away from my dad - to be almost unwilling to call him because that was just safer for all of us. And as much as I loved hearing his voice, it was always harder right after I hung up the phone. And Backup... some days I want nothing more than to be able to take him to play at the beach, so hearing he's taken up permanent residence on my bed is more than a little heartbreaking ( ... )

logan_echolls April 19 2006, 05:57:58 UTC

I let out a breath and brushed a few strands of her hair out of her face, away from her eyes and cheeks. "Well, you really don't have to worry about that," I told her firmly. Yeah, I got the fact that neither of us could do this without the other and that this was strictly something we had to do together, but I didn't leave things behind that I didn't not want to leave behind. I didn't have the father I cared enough to associate with or the people who really cared enough about my absence despite what Veronica said about her father saying Trina's been asking about me. Big fucking deal. She finally noticed her little brother? Whatever ( ... )

renewedsoul_v April 19 2006, 19:01:22 UTC

"I know. And I'm incredibly thankful for that." I promise him softly at his statement, reassurance, whatever it was, that I didn't have to worry about doing this alone. I knew that. Having him here made all of this bearable. He was the reason for all of it anyway... without him, what's the point?

"That was pretty much my reaction when my dad told me, too. Disbelief that she actually thought to ask him without needing something and known you wouldn't actually believe it when I told you. He was less than thrilled with that response, believe me." I told him, "But yeah, I don't know... he just told me to tell you she'd been in asking if he knew where you were. I know, it's weird."

"He also said the same thing I did - that if you did it, there wouldn't be so many people trying to make you look guilty." I pointed out when he said he thought my dad already thought he was innocent. It's true. He would have been trying even harder to keep me away from Logan otherwise, but it's not entirely the point. "And I'm sorry, I just thought he should ( ... )

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logan_echolls April 25 2006, 07:33:20 UTC

"We can go with South Park," I nodded towards her. Even though the last time I'd watched it Duncan and I had put dents in each other, hated each other because we knew each other for so long through hurt and good times and could no longer even remember the good times without aching, I wasn't going to harp on previous bad movie watching. There'd be a lot of movies off the list if I had to go and remember everything that happened surrounding the event of actually watching something decent ( ... )

renewedsoul_v April 25 2006, 21:53:19 UTC

"The amount of times I've watched that movie, you'd think I'd be completely sick of it, sorry." I told him apologetically. "Look on the bright side, most girls find South Park rude and completely stupid... your girlfriend on the other hand? Loves it." I added with a smirk. "You won the freaking lottery." I teased, attempting to keep him focused here with me. Not that I was entirely sure he needed it.

"This is cooking?" I asked, raising my eyebrows, "Really now? 'Cause somehow I think the offer of frozen pizza on the boat's closer to cooking than this is, honey." I pointed out, my voice laced with light sarcasm. "But I'll give you points for getting me food, how's that sound?"

He starts to tug up his shirt, and I'd make some comment about that being unsanitary, if not for what he did with the left over ice cream the last time we did this. Instead all I do is laugh, "Well, you could." I smiled, leaning on the counter. "Won't find me complaining, anyway."

logan_echolls April 25 2006, 23:04:26 UTC

"You'd think the amount of times I've watched that movie with you that I'd be completely sick of it," I countered. Truthfully, Veronica definitely loved that movie far more than me, but to see her just amused at some of the music in the movie was worth the extra watching. "Isn't the point of the movie that it is rude and stupid?" I joked.

"And this is my cooking," I pointed out, motioning towards the bowls of ice cream as I sprinkled red cherry flavored jelly beans over them. "But if you really want a banquet one night I swear I'll do that whole thing with real Kraft Dinner and not some generic brand. I'll still and even open up that little package of orange powder stuff. It will be served with the good china," I tell her, amused.

Discarding my shirt completely, I tossed it towards it. "You've heard of Naked Chef, haven't you?" My smirk tightened on my face as I picked up the whipped cream can and shook it. "Or I could do some sort of Varsity Blues thing," I offered. "Maybe, just maybe, you were the one who won the lottery."

renewedsoul_v April 26 2006, 19:59:25 UTC

"Also true. Now just think of how many times my dad has watched it with me in the past few years alone." I pointed out laughing. "And that's the point of South Park in general, but most girls? Kinda avoid that." Which was true. I couldn't think of another girl who would willing sit through hours of South Park unless their boyfriends made them. Not one that at one point fell into the 09ner category anyway. Like they're so far above it? Funny's funny ( ... )

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