And so, life you are still a bitch. Your cousin honesty, is an emotionless little princess that gets her way by telling people how things are without thinking about how it will effect them. be it good, or be it bad. i dislike you both with a passion; for some days, i do not like to face either of you, i feel like i cannot face either of you and yet, other days you fill my soul with all that seems right. you both can make my bright skys dark and grey while other days you do just the opposite; banishing grey clouds from in front of my sunlight. i hate you both for what you are, but thank you for what you do. my life would be a lie if honesty didn't speak up, for if she never spoke, i would have no reason to change the things about me i never knew i had the capibility to do. to change the bad things about myself that i never knew were a problem. to know that i lie to myself, but not to others, yet i still lie. i'm a liar, hurting no one but me. repressing that hurt. ingoring it. lieing that i don't feel it. lieing that i don't feel the disbelief in myself to be confident about this. lieing to myself to a point that others around me don't know if they believe me. honesty. you are above all else the worst pain a person can feel. it makes the amputated limbs feel alive. honesty, you suck....but i respect it.
saw north country today. it was a really good movie. saw willow too, that was exellent.