WoW.  Relationships are so over rated these days.  Im living it I swear.  People want them so bad but when youget them you love it for a while but then that freedom comes back into place.  And no its not because I want to date other people.  I need my own space for a while.  I just.. I wanted to see or just remember what it was like.. but i guess ( Read more... )

Im Going To 0rLaNd0 Today!  *Yayy*  {{thats for you Bobby!}}

Im gonna miss everyone!  But im not going to lie.. IM GONNA HAVE SOOO MUCH FUN!  I'll bt thinking about you when im riding on the rides and swimming and eating out everynight.. while your sitting in school working and going home doing homework.. ;)  ~!~JayKay~!~  But seriously!  Gah i've ( Read more... )

Guys are FuCkInG gay!!!  I hate them ALLLLLLLL!!!!

Ahh.. when things start getting better.. something always screws it up.

Maybe.. just MAYBE  I can try to fix this..

But I still cant wait until Orlando.. me and Carolyn.. GAHD  thats going to be SO much fun!  And this summer which Carolyn.. im most likely going to go!  Just gotta talk to my mommy.. hehe.  I love you!

okay im just going to stop talking about it bc whatever happens happens right?  or should i worry. i want to be OKAY again.

so yeah.. today was good.. just really confused.. and alot of ppl know where im coming from either that or they just say they do so i'll shut up..

okay i guess so..

what do i do?

god i wish i knew what this was and why this feeling keeps repeating.. ugh

am i just not normal anymore.. LOVE doesnt fade.. but what the hell keeps running through my mind IS real and I dont know what to do!

hurting.. didnt come with this.. it wasnt intended.. so this isnt explainable..

$!!*@!!%!^!!%*$@#!!^%#$^@#%*!@&@#$!!

~!~ ( Read more... )

Dont put words in my mouth.. think what you want.. but none of your "conclusions" as to what happens means anything to me.  I dont want pity.. i dont want answers.. what i want are friends.  What I thought I had is no more.. Dont give away your everything until your for sure it is everything.  Dont give away what you cant take back.. and dont give ( Read more... )

WhooHooo.. Bowling til 3 in the morning.  YaYy!

Uhm.. that was weird..  But seriously.. thats going to be awesome!  I dunno what im going to do afterwards because i'll prolly be all wound up haha.  But yeah.. im going to my moms sunday.. grr..  I wanna see Lorena and Carolyn and Meagan and Courtney and Erikka...  :(  But at least I get to spend tme ( Read more... )

today sucked ( Read more... )

im sitting at bobbys right now.. just thought id update since we aint doin shit.

i think kody is about to come get us, though.

but.. i want to go muddin..

carolyn i love you so much dont think that i dont. i dont want to fight anymore okay. love youu

okay well im leaving now to go get some McDonalds.. whose with me..?!