well,
it was alright,..
.. i thought Knowing the whole story wouldn't dull it any, .....
..
.......but,,. well, i think it did.

..
nice watching the dark side take over still, though.

THis is the time i realize my curiousity for scientology isn't comfortable.
.i think i see it more "clearly" but not sure if it is going to be easy.

she is completely oblivious...

.. innocent is something that hasn't been in a while...

. i miss the warm comfort

the cold comes in...
.. again.
again,.
again..

.. until i snap.

..
. what is sometimes called "GOD" wants to push me pass the limits of what "is"

.. I want to get a 'normal' job ( Read more... )

.. shit is scary.
life is getting blury

..
....... letting go gets easier by the second.
. forgot how in the start i even got in it.

..
.. forget what "i" was.
what "i" want..

the answer for both is nothing.

but the best thing i could do is end it with a positive note.:

"i love you"

..

.
slipping through the cracks
. let go of what i wanted the most.

.
.
.... now it is back,
my reflection is a ghost.

so devine is mother.

. she teaches me to best feel in the life i have been given.

created to create
.
i love my mom.

sometimes i think i'm happy here.
. how did it get started?

nothing will end.
... oh, it will be back again.
and again.

die , rebirth,
i hope

i battle my demon,./
.. but he always beats me.

i missed something important today.

.. and i watched it slip by.

now i panic,

as the boat sinks,
and the crash burns.

wow.,,

.. i've been listening to the new NIN on Myspace.com!!!

it is the best yet!