Well I re-newed my contract and got a profile up on suicide girls. I'm seriously going to do it this time, especially since leo is being so supportive about it. (I demanded that he take the photos though no on else so I can pretend billions aren't seeing me naked!) It just doesn't bother me. I need the extra cash and the title as well as ( Read more... )

I was playing the sims 2 too much today, trying not to spark up the old habit since I quit playing for awhile and it was out of hand before for real! Anyway tomorrow is Halloween, the 3rd bestest day of the year and I absolutely didn't prepare. The abstruseness of the situation has me semi-distressed! I always dress up, but this year I'm totally ( Read more... )

Well today started like an eventful day. I had my post op appointment but missed it 'cause we didn't want to risk the car blowing up since theres a fuel injector leak that won't be looked at 'till tomorrow. (Theres a ton of other stuff wrong with it but I won't know all the stats to exactness until tomorrow when I go into the shop with lita.) I was ( Read more... )

I had so many dreams about the baby that I'm kind of understanding now what everyone told me that it would haunt me forever. I miss there being something in here even though it was tremendously painful. I can still see it dancing at the ultrasound and hear that horrible sucking sound and I knew it was over. I wanted to bleed to death in the back of ( Read more... )

Yep its not much AT ALL but its the definite starting point I needed. I'll be a sales associate at claire's but they want to move me up to assistant manager so they're going to see if I'm able to work my way up and I will. I passed their managers training test so I can do it and I agree this way is much better. It'll show them I can take the ( Read more... )

Well this morning started at 7am as usual and I found out I didn't get the job at my old office. They hired somebody else on wednesday so theres that. That led to the mothers rampage before work so theres the beginning of the day. Then chubbs came home and asked to download a game on the computer and I said no. So he got chubb like and in my face ( Read more... )

Its been an alright weekend. After that venting the other night I haven't thought about things at all. I'm finally coping and I've let go. I even went out to dinner with lita, karl and his lady at buca di beppo to celebrate kinda. The food was waaaay expensivo and only so so. Then again I'm spoiled I am italian. Lita said it was like taking me to ( Read more... )

Just when I thought it was done I lose my access insurance and was denied my visit today. FUCK on top of that I'm overdrawn at the bank $0! None of lita's cars are working and I need to pawn more stuff. I wish I had more valuable things ( Read more... )

Can I add the icing to my life cake right now, my grandpa is scheduled to get surgery on the cancer in his leg and theres complications that it may not be benign so he may lose his leg or worse. Just shoot me you know man shit 'cause my grandparents are whats holding whatever it is we have I guess its a family together and if my grandpa dies then ( Read more... )

.......... quick quick quick, down the chimney with good saint nick ( Read more... )