I really am impulsive ( Read more... )

If I could take back the past 9 months I would. It's left me so fucked up. I can't help but ask myself, "what's wrong with me?" When will I finally find what I'm looking for? Better yet, what am I looking for? All I can conjure up is the oposite of hurt. There's too much hurt.

Maya and I just got officially aproved for our apartment. I don't even know what to think. Just 3 months ago I hadn't had a clue about what my future prevailed. Now I know and theres not a day that goes by that I'm not excited about it. It's a big transition; Geneva to Rochester I mean. All I can say is that I'm not looking back, I'm only looking ( Read more... )

Are the smiles in old photographs real? Or are they memories we try to reembrace, based on a few fake smiles glued to one's face? At that one, single moment in time, the people in those pictures seem unstopable.  Pictures however, are just a "pose." It seems to me that everytime I look back at an old photograph, the first thing that comes to mind ( Read more... )

I fucking hate Stanley. I fucking hate the Stanley Town Justice worse and all of those who work there ( Read more... )

I have court today. My parents still don't know. My brothers still don't know. It's kinda psychotic.

Today was ok. Nope... It was really boring until about 5. Me Dana and MK went out to Cleo's and just hung out. It's wierd, you think that something like going  out and grabbing dinner is just meh. But when I'm with my friends, I'm so happy.

I miss my dad.

The highs make the lows so worth it.
Fuck, I'm going insane.

Today as myself and Dana were at Maya's we started to talk about memories. At the time I happened to look down at my foot and realized that a scar was looking back to me. Call me crazy, but I got to thinking about scars- Are scars the remnents of cuts and gashes or are they the remnants of memories and days that you can't get back? As I looked at ( Read more... )

Basically last night was pretty kick ass. I went to Maya's grad party and left happy, soaking wet, tanked, almost high, out of cigs, ummmmmm.... I don't know. This is what went down ( Read more... )