The smoke exits my mouth, makes a swirling pattern, then disappears in the atmosphere of my single room apartment. I begin to wonder how long i can continue to feed my dog before i must retrieve groceries, thus unboarding my door. yesterday i smashed the mirror after seeing something terrible, inhuman in it. standing beside me, almost within me, ( Read more... )

i dont often remember my dreams, but i do often wake up wide-eyed, trembling, and covered in sweat. sometimes i'm crying. the fear usually disappears after sitting up in bed, chain smoking cigarettes for about half an hour. then i can allow myself to doze off again. in this time, i usually end up waking up my dog to alleviate the lonely fear ( Read more... )

the sounds of the street are audible, as are the fishmongers.

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This is a short draft of an idea ( Read more... )

http://kevan.org/johari?name=CaptainNoWalk

do it

the only sound in my ears is the steady beat of my heart. it stays this way for 20 seconds before other sounds filter in. slowly a ringing develops, reminding me of the gunshot. the metal cold and lifeless in my right hand, the hand i often use to aim. steam escapes with every breath i exhale through my dry, cracked lips. my lungs the sound ( Read more... )

people are afraid to merge on the freeways in LA

disappear here

the box is grey, the color of old ash. it's cube-shaped, nothing too eye-catching. as a matter of fact, it is possible to look for it for ages without finding it, unless you know what to look for. although the box is quite anonymous looking, there's something odd about it. although the sides are solid, some unknown material, one can't help but ( Read more... )

my car is so totalled ( Read more... )