Sometimes, you just gotta let it out.
I wanna apologize for this.
I wanna know what your FUCKING problem is. Why, after 8+ months, are you still so bitter? What is it that's stuck up your ass? You have someone else now. Any normal person would see that they've lost two very awesome friends and would really make an effort to gain them back instead of just saying they will. Though I guess that's what our relationship was like, huh? A lot of talk and no action.
And don't you dare get on to me about how hurt you are from all that. That is BULLSHIT. I am so scarred over our relationship that it's affecting the one I'm in now. I can't trust him sometimes, I'm worried about him always being in a bad mood. I freak out when he doesn't tell me things that would normally be so trivial. But thanks to YOU and the damage that you caused, I am paranoid. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of you telling everyone that YOU were the one who got hurt and torn apart, like I cheated on you.
I fought for you for so long, I WAITED for you for so long. How did you repay me? You flirted with other girls, you never gave me a direct answer, you disappointed me time after time. What else was I supposed to do? I was tired of waiting for your sorry ass.
And now that I'm in a better relationship I can see just how pathetic I was to stick with you for so long. You, who flirts with girls, waiting for that one with just low enough self-esteem that you can snatch her up, make her feel all special for a month or so, and then spit in her face and make her feel like shit for the rest of the relationship. Do you know that I have not had a bout of depression since SEPTEMBER of 2005? Everytime I got depressed in the past two years, it's been because of our relationship. I didn't feel like you really cared for me (you never showed it), I didn't feel like I was good enough for you.
But now I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm with someone who has never made me cry, who I've never sat up for during the night, waiting for a phone call. He's never changed plans on me, never said "I'm just too tired" or "I have too much homework to do" when I wanted to hang out. He bought me my favorite flower a week after we started dating. When did you ever finally listen to me? AFTER we broke up. And I never realized that I could date a guy who wouldn't tease me, who wouldn't say smart-ass comments to me in front of my friends, who wouldn't yell at me for touching his fucking head.
You are one self-centered sonofabitch. As long as you have a girl around, you're safe. You don't actually have to BE with the girl and make her feel loved, you just need her to say "look, I have a girlfriend. In your face." And to think I thought you had changed! Nope, still the same old frustrating, doesn't-make-an-effort, lazy ass.
So tell me what your problem is. Tell me why the FUCK you still can't be friends with us. Too damaged? Still in love? Whatever it is, GET OVER IT. Because your immature attitude is pissing me off. I'm about to rip your Goddamned balls off and feed them to the fucking fishes. I'm so sick of your shit.
And for CHRIST'S SAKE, stop treating her like you treated me. She deserves so much better than that.
I wanna know what your FUCKING problem is. Why, after 8+ months, are you still so bitter? What is it that's stuck up your ass? You have someone else now. Any normal person would see that they've lost two very awesome friends and would really make an effort to gain them back instead of just saying they will. Though I guess that's what our relationship was like, huh? A lot of talk and no action.
And don't you dare get on to me about how hurt you are from all that. That is BULLSHIT. I am so scarred over our relationship that it's affecting the one I'm in now. I can't trust him sometimes, I'm worried about him always being in a bad mood. I freak out when he doesn't tell me things that would normally be so trivial. But thanks to YOU and the damage that you caused, I am paranoid. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of you telling everyone that YOU were the one who got hurt and torn apart, like I cheated on you.
I fought for you for so long, I WAITED for you for so long. How did you repay me? You flirted with other girls, you never gave me a direct answer, you disappointed me time after time. What else was I supposed to do? I was tired of waiting for your sorry ass.
And now that I'm in a better relationship I can see just how pathetic I was to stick with you for so long. You, who flirts with girls, waiting for that one with just low enough self-esteem that you can snatch her up, make her feel all special for a month or so, and then spit in her face and make her feel like shit for the rest of the relationship. Do you know that I have not had a bout of depression since SEPTEMBER of 2005? Everytime I got depressed in the past two years, it's been because of our relationship. I didn't feel like you really cared for me (you never showed it), I didn't feel like I was good enough for you.
But now I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm with someone who has never made me cry, who I've never sat up for during the night, waiting for a phone call. He's never changed plans on me, never said "I'm just too tired" or "I have too much homework to do" when I wanted to hang out. He bought me my favorite flower a week after we started dating. When did you ever finally listen to me? AFTER we broke up. And I never realized that I could date a guy who wouldn't tease me, who wouldn't say smart-ass comments to me in front of my friends, who wouldn't yell at me for touching his fucking head.
You are one self-centered sonofabitch. As long as you have a girl around, you're safe. You don't actually have to BE with the girl and make her feel loved, you just need her to say "look, I have a girlfriend. In your face." And to think I thought you had changed! Nope, still the same old frustrating, doesn't-make-an-effort, lazy ass.
So tell me what your problem is. Tell me why the FUCK you still can't be friends with us. Too damaged? Still in love? Whatever it is, GET OVER IT. Because your immature attitude is pissing me off. I'm about to rip your Goddamned balls off and feed them to the fucking fishes. I'm so sick of your shit.
And for CHRIST'S SAKE, stop treating her like you treated me. She deserves so much better than that.