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Write ten statements, intended for different people. Never tell which one is to who; Write the things you've always wanted to tell them.
01] "You may think you're fooling some people, but I know what's going on." I wish you would be true to yourself. I wish you would trust yourself and trust those around you and embrace everything you truly are. People will love you more for being honest than living lie. It's hard to be friends with someone who won't tell you things--important things. Isn't that what friendship is about? Admitting struggles and working through them with those that want nothing more than to help you. I can't imagine what it's like for you right now. I can't imagine dealing with so much without any support. I'm here when you're ready. Until then, stop acting like something you're not.
02] You will never read this. Mostly because you could care less what's going on in my life. You haven't cared for years. I am no longer important to you. Perhaps somewhere, in the back of your mind, you still love me and think of me and wonder where your life went. But upfront it's all about that one all-encompassing medication. The stuff that makes you stupid and forgetful. Nothing matters anymore but that. All you want to do is get lost inside fermented wheat. You've been gone a long time. I'm so angry with you all the time. I look at you and pity you. I've given up all hope of saving you. And yet I want nothing more than to have you back.
03] I don't know what happened to us. One minute we were best friends and the next we were just...us. I don't know what I did and I know that even if I asked you wouldn't tell me because that's the way that you are. It's okay that you have a new best friend and I understand if you don't want me anymore; I just wish I knew why. I miss you. I miss that awesome bond we used to have. Sometimes it sprouts back up, and at those times I have hope. But it's short-lived, and I'm stuck without knowing what to do to help us get better. I'm really honestly lost without you. You've helped me through my roughest times. I only wish I could have done more for you.
04] I can't stand being around you and your sister. When you guys are together the world goes to shit. I love you both to death but seriously, knock it off. Grow up. Stop pitching a fit if I don't want to drive forever to watch you get drunk with your new friends. And you wonder why I never answered my phone...
05] I can't believe you. I thought you were nice. A little quirky, but a genuinely nice guy. We went to dinner once. It was a little awkward but it was okay. And all this time, if I only knew what you were up to. How could you do that to her? How could you take advantage of her? "I want you to know what it's like." OMG I could kill you. I have lost all respect for you. I saw you earlier this summer and wanted so bad to punch you right in the mouth. My mom still thinks you're a nice guy. I don't have the heart to tell her otherwise.
06] You are crazy. After all these years you're still so...weird. We were never friends. I had a crush on your best friend. How much does that suck, knowing I couldn't do anything about it cuz you were all over me? And then when we get back in touch you act like we've been buddy-buddy for so long. Oh, but here's the kicker--we haven't. Sure, I feel bad for the stuff that I put you through, but it's not like I scarred you for life. And what's with freaking out about losing touch with you again? That was the stupidest thing I've ever experienced. Getting yelled at for losing touch with someone who isn't even my friend. I don't know about you. I really don't.
07] I wish I could find you again. You were lost to me three years ago and I feel like that was completely unecessary. Why haven't we contacted each other? We used to hang out all the time. I've never laughed so hard as when I was with you, making stupid trash sculptures and drawing stick figures. We went to football games and sat next to each other at lunch. And then we graduated. I haven't talked to you since. I searched on facebook for you (how ridiculous is that?) but you haven't fallen into that trap yet. I have no idea what you're up to. We were such good friends.
08] I miss you a lot. I don't know what I'm going to do this year without you. I'm completely lost when it comes to everything technical about this stupid discipline, and now I've gone and lost the only person who can explain stuff to me. I felt so safe when you were here, like no matter what happened I could always count on you to fix it for me. And you were amazing at what you did. I marvelled at your skill and inspiration and how you put so much of yourself into your work. I only wish I could be as talented as you.
09] I don't know how you got so lucky. Your stuff is bland, unoriginal, and without inspiration. It's retarded. And yet everytime they liked your stuff the best. And you're annoying. You come off as "I don't know why they picked me and not you..." when really you're thinking "haha you suck." Well you know what? YOU suck.
10] I know that we had our little riff in the past, but after everything that's happened I still don't like you. I think you put a bad name on people like yourself. You are WAY too into your rebellion. And you're such a little bitch! "If you don't like me then get a new hobby." Come on. There is a fine line between not caring what people think of you and just plain pissing everyone off for the hell of it. And for the record, I think the way you decorated your house is hideous.
I'm sleeping in my new bed tonight in Beeson. It's kinda weird, but I like it. I'm anxious for this year to start. It should be a great time, but there's just so much to do. And then, like that, it all ends.
01] "You may think you're fooling some people, but I know what's going on." I wish you would be true to yourself. I wish you would trust yourself and trust those around you and embrace everything you truly are. People will love you more for being honest than living lie. It's hard to be friends with someone who won't tell you things--important things. Isn't that what friendship is about? Admitting struggles and working through them with those that want nothing more than to help you. I can't imagine what it's like for you right now. I can't imagine dealing with so much without any support. I'm here when you're ready. Until then, stop acting like something you're not.
02] You will never read this. Mostly because you could care less what's going on in my life. You haven't cared for years. I am no longer important to you. Perhaps somewhere, in the back of your mind, you still love me and think of me and wonder where your life went. But upfront it's all about that one all-encompassing medication. The stuff that makes you stupid and forgetful. Nothing matters anymore but that. All you want to do is get lost inside fermented wheat. You've been gone a long time. I'm so angry with you all the time. I look at you and pity you. I've given up all hope of saving you. And yet I want nothing more than to have you back.
03] I don't know what happened to us. One minute we were best friends and the next we were just...us. I don't know what I did and I know that even if I asked you wouldn't tell me because that's the way that you are. It's okay that you have a new best friend and I understand if you don't want me anymore; I just wish I knew why. I miss you. I miss that awesome bond we used to have. Sometimes it sprouts back up, and at those times I have hope. But it's short-lived, and I'm stuck without knowing what to do to help us get better. I'm really honestly lost without you. You've helped me through my roughest times. I only wish I could have done more for you.
04] I can't stand being around you and your sister. When you guys are together the world goes to shit. I love you both to death but seriously, knock it off. Grow up. Stop pitching a fit if I don't want to drive forever to watch you get drunk with your new friends. And you wonder why I never answered my phone...
05] I can't believe you. I thought you were nice. A little quirky, but a genuinely nice guy. We went to dinner once. It was a little awkward but it was okay. And all this time, if I only knew what you were up to. How could you do that to her? How could you take advantage of her? "I want you to know what it's like." OMG I could kill you. I have lost all respect for you. I saw you earlier this summer and wanted so bad to punch you right in the mouth. My mom still thinks you're a nice guy. I don't have the heart to tell her otherwise.
06] You are crazy. After all these years you're still so...weird. We were never friends. I had a crush on your best friend. How much does that suck, knowing I couldn't do anything about it cuz you were all over me? And then when we get back in touch you act like we've been buddy-buddy for so long. Oh, but here's the kicker--we haven't. Sure, I feel bad for the stuff that I put you through, but it's not like I scarred you for life. And what's with freaking out about losing touch with you again? That was the stupidest thing I've ever experienced. Getting yelled at for losing touch with someone who isn't even my friend. I don't know about you. I really don't.
07] I wish I could find you again. You were lost to me three years ago and I feel like that was completely unecessary. Why haven't we contacted each other? We used to hang out all the time. I've never laughed so hard as when I was with you, making stupid trash sculptures and drawing stick figures. We went to football games and sat next to each other at lunch. And then we graduated. I haven't talked to you since. I searched on facebook for you (how ridiculous is that?) but you haven't fallen into that trap yet. I have no idea what you're up to. We were such good friends.
08] I miss you a lot. I don't know what I'm going to do this year without you. I'm completely lost when it comes to everything technical about this stupid discipline, and now I've gone and lost the only person who can explain stuff to me. I felt so safe when you were here, like no matter what happened I could always count on you to fix it for me. And you were amazing at what you did. I marvelled at your skill and inspiration and how you put so much of yourself into your work. I only wish I could be as talented as you.
09] I don't know how you got so lucky. Your stuff is bland, unoriginal, and without inspiration. It's retarded. And yet everytime they liked your stuff the best. And you're annoying. You come off as "I don't know why they picked me and not you..." when really you're thinking "haha you suck." Well you know what? YOU suck.
10] I know that we had our little riff in the past, but after everything that's happened I still don't like you. I think you put a bad name on people like yourself. You are WAY too into your rebellion. And you're such a little bitch! "If you don't like me then get a new hobby." Come on. There is a fine line between not caring what people think of you and just plain pissing everyone off for the hell of it. And for the record, I think the way you decorated your house is hideous.
I'm sleeping in my new bed tonight in Beeson. It's kinda weird, but I like it. I'm anxious for this year to start. It should be a great time, but there's just so much to do. And then, like that, it all ends.