Do I not exsist in this relationship? Am I human? I dont even know anymore, im tired of getting hurt. and it seems to me that thats the way it is. im alwyas letting go of my better judgmnt, that i let common sense go away when it came to you. i dont listne to my own adive ever. i walk around thinking im happy. but in reality i look like an idiot ( Read more... )

i thought that confronting the past would make me get over it ( Read more... )

i need to do something that allows me to let go of all my insecurities ( Read more... )

i dont know if this is a psychological problem or just a self esteem issue. im so negative, i cannot be happy for a whole day something has to go and upset me, but it something i look for, like on facebook even going back to myspace, like i look for something to get me angry or mad. im so insecure with myself its crazy. but i think this stems fromt ( Read more... )

I just dont get it, people really confuse me. Everyone goes through different things in their lives and those experiances and decisins shaoe their lives and who they are, but why do some people think they other people have to learn from the mistakes of others? to be honest that doesnt even sound fun to me. i want to learn things on my i own. i want ( Read more... )

its really sad that people do things you never expect. and how each action breaks a person down until there is nothing left of them or their heart. i hope i will be fortunate enough to keep things together and not have the fate, but in some ways we will never know. things can happen that you dont expect behind you back. people lie and cheat and ( Read more... )

so jj and i were talking about livejournal. i figured this was a great time to update and maybe start this up again. pretty funny reading over my old posts and friends old posts ( Read more... )

Well am I doing this again? is it different this time. i always ask myself that question before anything even starts, and in the end its always the same ( Read more... )

I sometimes dont understand why things happen. I just kinda lost track of things this summer, i really did. I havent hung out with anyone from my school, maybe once at the begining of the summer. I still dont know if im a changed person, i doubt it, im still a huge bitch, but ive learned how to not deal with everyones shit. i dont let people walk ( Read more... )

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