tired

[captjackmehoff]

i'm so fucking tired of feeling like this. i really thought that these days were in the past. but i guess not. God has more pain in store for me, what a kidder.. you'd figure that drinking every night would drown out most of it? heh.. it just lifts me higher before slamming me right back down at the end of the night after everyone leaves. and

Comments

[darkreiver]

Dude, I don't know what to say. I've been where you are now and as I recall not only did all advice not work, some of it actually made me feel worse.

I just don't advise going down the same route I have. The drink didn't work, the drugs didn't work and now I'm probably dependant on some pharmaceutical ersatz version of MDMA.

Things do get better though....

[captjackmehoff]

yea! we definitely have to hang out again :) you'll have to come down on one of your days off and we'll have a party!

[jezebelle706]

we could start a "God Hates Us Club"
i mean think of all the possibilites...name tags...positions...meetings...eh...we could be co-presidents...?
just a thought...

it just seems (on my end) when anything good does happen anymore, something 5x's worse happens shortly after to ruin what little happiness there is/was?

*hugs*

[captjackmehoff]

that'd be one big club ;) and yea, life is one big roller coaster. or maybe it's more like a car running you over.. and then backing up and running you over again...

[jezebelle706]

lol!
yes, i like the car analogy better...

just keep swimming...

[balianne]

is this the part where i come in with some really annoyingly upbeat, motivational, pearly, words of wisdom...don't worry, I'll spare you the craptastic advise. Sometimes it is very true. life sucks

but sometimes it's cool too.