I just wanted to clear something up before my new entry..Lord, I am sorry for questioning you and the reasons for it in my previous post. Although we may not see it now it must be to make us into stronger human beings and to get us ready for the future. That being said, I can continue on to what my entry will be ( Read more... )

School is coming to an end, and i see several Bs in my future if i continue on this path of completing my homework and studying. i hope to see myself getting acceptance letters to colleges offering good nursing program this time next year. i want to succeed and feel like i can manage my own life without the help of anyone releasing the burden on my ( Read more... )

Am I the only one in my house that is obsessed with these chocolate covered strawberries I made? yes yes, i think so.I have to get in my last splurge of chili cheese fries from the hat and chocolate before i start the master cleanse diet. i am hoping i will lose a large amount of weight so i will be at my comfortable spot since im 135 now and that ( Read more... )

i am a flowerchild. my innersoul is rare on this earth and the amount of love i have in my heart and want to share is so immense most people underestimate me and i dont think they see im made of more than these freckles and brown hair. a few nights ago i was bawling and angry with myself for losing one of the most honorable men in the world. i ( Read more... )

venting that made me feel really good to the point where i dont want to stop. perhaps this should be my addiction, writing about my inner fears and awkward thoughts that disturb my mind through the day and mess up my current relationships because im too busy in my own head trying to fight everything. i should be going to bed right now. its emilys ( Read more... )

alright ill spill ( Read more... )

a year from now none of this will matter. i keep hurting myself by going onto my exs myspace and seeing that he has a new girl who hes hooking up with. I HATE THAT IT STILL MATTERS TO ME. things got so fucked upppppppp, why do i still care? he isnt even the same person anymore. i went to tech n9nes concert last night ad it was the most incredible ( Read more... )

i always find myself looking to say something when everything is going the right way in my life but i cant because its that simple. i dont need the livejournal outlet to spill all those embarrassing thoughts that you want to say out loud but know that if you did everyone would trip balls on you and feel awkward. life is utterly random. every day is ( Read more... )

i get in these weird phases where i am in some kind of cynical down spiral and they are really hard to get out of. i have so much going for me and candice reminded me that life isnt just a walk in the park like the way its been handed to me. i really dont have any excuse.. a thought comes in my mind and i dont even think about rules. i ( Read more... )

i wish i had stayed sober. so fucking stuck in this mess ive created in my head.