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Prematurity Awareness Day and Bloggers Unite

Nov 17, 2010 21:46

Today is National Prematurity Awareness day and I am 29 weeks and 6 days pregnant. According to the March of Dimes; if my baby were to be born now, she would have up to a 96% chance of survival. The percentage itself seems comforting at first glance, but it is really not. There is absolutely no component of that statistic that speaks to the ( Read more... )

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caramaea November 22 2010, 14:53:21 UTC

I guess there isn't. I just wasn't prepared for it. I was so ready to feel joy and happiness and I just didn't think it would be the reminder it was. I feel bad about it for Jonathan, but that's in my head too - he'll never know.

This pregnancy has been going so well and yet I am so terrified. I think my anxiety is really mounting now as we're getting closer. I am too close now to have it all ripped away and I am so freaking scared. Part of me just wants her out now so that I don't have to worry about my body killing her anymore. I know that's crazy...

I really hope that loss has stolen its last joys from me. I would like to be able to enjoy my daughter's firsts fully.