some possibly interesting darwin things
so im done with school for the winter...i got an overall 3.8 this semester (stupid poetry). im taking spring/summer classes (statistics and macro econ) and im working at our rec center as a camp counselor for part of the summer and then im working for the BELL foundation from july to mid august. its a really great program...it works with inner city kids to improve their low math and literacy scores. plus i get paid =D
anyway...i just looked through this memory box i put together in september...when neo and i broke up...which was like the most significant thing of my life at the time. anyway...it got me thinking about how much of me has changed so much. i mean 9 months ago i would literally weep when i opened that box and saw the pictures of me and neo and put back on my rings and stuff. needless to say...that didnt happen this time. and maybe its cuz its been 9 months...but ultimately i cant believe that thats all it is.
ME, I am different now. i am older, and wiser...and sure that happens every year, but this year i think ive really progressed at acting like it. i work harder at trying to understand peoples different views, i care more about my future...and i show it by excelling in school and being way more active in finding jobs that pertain to my area of work. ive really learned to effectively prioritize, and really i owe that to the show, because that show was going to go on good or bad and i was enrolled to take classes so i had to do both. but regardless...the trait stayed. ive outgrown people...and grown towards new ones. ive done things im exceptionally proud of and things im completely ashamed of and ive learned that its ok to have that list. i feel different...inside and out and i really like it. i go out a lot more (practically every thursday and saturday at least) and i like it...the dancing aspect and (usually) the music aspect. i watch a hell of a lot less tv and listen to a hell of a lot more music and im out more rollerblading or playing hockey (you read that right), i fold clothes more often (slightly, very very slightly) which doesnt seem significant but trust me, it is. case and point...this was a huge changing year for me...and im glad for it. i got to see a lot of things about people, and i got to see a lot about myself. im really happy...like honestly really happy with the things ive retained about myself and the things that have changed because i think im becoming a better person, one that is more well rounded and not quite so young and stupid. i feel really good. really, really good...