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My world has come to an end. What do you do when your not wanted anymore. I love him so much and I know we could make it but he is over us and dosent qant to try. Not finding a lot of reasons to go on at this point -
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interesting thing happened today Master listend and heard. there was an inncedent last night that upset me and has always had the tendency to throw up my walls. I've tryed to explain this to him before with no luck and always yhe same .. walls go up and things go back to husband and wife. this time when we talked today he actually heard me and ( Read more... ) -
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soooo on the road with Master finally. its great to be back witb Him. I find my attitude changing by the day though times its hard not to be a smart ass. ended up totally frustrated sexualy last night though well used. not sur if there is relief in ssight soon or not. I suppose in afterthought this also is putting my head where it should be. its ( Read more... ) -
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on a positive note it looks like definatly tues. I'm truly excited it can't get here fast enough. todays been a pretty goid day. drive ti bodega to hook the fifth wheel up for my brother and bring it home I really live my camper and I'm glad its getting use again..
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it seems like the days are ticking by so very slowly I was so excited for monday. but as luck would have it its looking more like Thursday. .. so the way of truck driving but it is going to happen though and I will be in his arms soon. and beside him at night when we sleep. he's been a bit crabby today but I honestly do not believe it has to do ( Read more... ) -
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so I learned just how close I was to a divorce and I must say it was quite upsetting. even aside from the fact that he does not believe me when I told him he missunderstood what I was saying I was suprised to hear how close it was.
so do I walk on eggshells again or not.
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still getting ready for the camping trip. leaving in the morning. didn't get a chance to talk to Master much today and when I did he seemed grumpy or unhappy. must admit part of me is still walking on egg shells unsure if I have done something to make him mad or not. it can be a bit overwelming.
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sore and tired by the time I finish getting us ready for this camping trip all I will want to do when I get to the ocean is sleep. now I'm stuck waiting up for someones cloths to finish washing so I can shower and complete Masters task. I understand this is what he wants but in days like this all I want is sleep.
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I have completed my task for Master which is to be done daily from this day untill told otherwise. while I was not thrilled with the idea I believe that it already has ... damn the words ..already has shown me what he knew it would bring to the front of my mind that I'm his and how much I want him. I do really wish he was here right now this much ( Read more... ) -
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after talking I felt worse. I necer ment to make or put Master last in my life. I suppose its easy to get lost in the day to day life things while he is away. I have made it my mission to show him he is most certainly does not come last. not only is he my Master he is my husband and I truly miss him. and will go on the road more often with him. I ( Read more... )