i am a fool. most indubitably, i am very foolish. i seem to have made some exceptionally foolhardy decisions, many times regarding these foolish mortal emotions that have cost me so much, and gained me one of the most precious things of all, if only for a very small piece of time. i am a fool. an utter, misinterprating, ibecilic, fool who ( Read more... )

went to the NOHS dance thing, talked to people, had fun doing that, didnt dance with anyone (as usual). however disconcerting that could be taken to be, it is not the thing that spurns my anger on now. it's amazing how one can be so thoroughly disillusioned in such a short period of time. apparently i am quite easily put behind others, easily ( Read more... )

I am not surprised in the least. Once again, my pure, doltish, idiocy has ruined my life. This happens so much; but no matter how many times it happens, it hurts all the same. There are only a certain amount of these things one can take before one breaks... and I am very close to breaking now. Too close. But there's nothing I can do about it, ( Read more... )

Here's a song that describes, about, what I'm feeling at this time ( Read more... )

Man, I'm really pissed at myself right now. I always seem to screw everything up, just when its going very well... For example: now it seems that a friend of mine does not enjoy talking to me as once she did. Haha... but there's no use whining, is there? It won't make anything better, or fix this situation; my only hope is to somehow remedy this ( Read more... )

To believe, that for a few days out of my life, I could be happy. But, like all things, it ends. I am most thoroughly disillusioned. I told Becca of my past a day or so ago, and now she seems to dislike me for it; it is either that or some other unknown reason. Why can no one see that I am different, that I am not the same pyscho that I once was? ( Read more... )