I'm putting off getting a job and I'm putting off growing up. I just want May to come so I can be done with softball, so I can get a car, so I can have summer back. I got 4 A's, 2 B's and 1 C on my report card and I feel like I'm doing shitty, this is what has become of me. I really want to get into a state school, but things are looking hella ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning and everything was okay.
I just wish I had something to do.
It's a three day weekend, I want to go home.

I like the books that make everything fit into place again ( Read more... )

Last night was so bad ( Read more... )

I'm so bored with what I've become.

My brain doesn't work right anymore. Not like it used to anyway.
I need to tie back what I've undone,
I need to back off of what I've been consumed.
I need to go back and re-live what I've forgotten.
My birthday is the 12th... I think I'm going to go home, and Tyler's having a party the following weekend, so be prepared for some McKenna action!


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So yeah show at State on Wednesday, lame party, but we got beer and a bottle from them and I chilled with Laurel at Grants house ( Read more... )

I need to feel real again. I hate feeling this numb feeling like everything in my mind will just go back to how it used to be. And I can't cry and I want to more than anything. My mind won't let my eyes water. My body is a barren landscape with things I can't describe ( Read more... )

The cold weather reminds me of home and I like it because I feel like I am supposed to be here, I feel needed. I haven't talked to many people lately, especially all of the people in orlando and most of the girls here and I always find myself pushing everyone away and focusing only on the people I think matter most, only to sometimes, if not most ( Read more... )