so truly masochistic.

[caredundone]

so after last night's post i had a few beers and then read my journal archive of every post i made from when i broke up with nick until derek and i crashed and burned. pretty much everything from 2004. why do i do these things to myself? i don't know. i feel like maybe if i go back over everything that led up to this moment of depression over and

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[imsotechno]

It will pass, I was a complete mess dealing with sleeping alone after so many years of being used to someone else being there, it lasted for quite sometime...but it does pass, everything passes.

For most of my life ive been in long term relationships, and tbh anything lasting more than a year, and depending on how intense it is, maybe less...is going to leave you fucked...every time...ive always felt that its extremely important after relationships of this kind, to focus on yourself, unpack your baggage, learn to be ok with just you, instead of running away from yourself...which almost everyone does, like i said before, you are way ahead of the game in what you are saying and i almost never see this kind of introspection from people...and more importantly, from women, not to be sexist...even tho thats totally sexist i suppose...and yeah im glad we are keeping random contact again as well =).