i wish i was cooler...

so... im rebelling it out again up in english class. i wrote my essay and i fucking smashed it... because im awesome. now, the essay that i wrote was about past things that have effected me now. mr. wells said that it was good... which made me happy. i love to write. i have a constant writer's block tho that has stuck with me forever. tonite ( Read more... )

this weekend so far... pretty much just sucks. ive been depressed since yesturday and i dont even know why. at this moment... i wish that i was with someone right now. opportunities have come... and gone... and i dont know why i say no... or basically refuse to say yes. i dont wanna be surrounded by just one main person... i dont wanna be loved ( Read more... )

im so glad that its friday. makes me so happy... only a few more weeks until i get to go camping with april, john-boy, and bryan. we all know what happens when me and bryan are togther... ;). anyways... today was a good day... until a friend of mine started a tiny bit of drama. its ok tho... because im kinda over it... and, by monday it will be ( Read more... )

this weekend was extra awesome... it was me, april l, john-boy, april p, julie, andy, brandy, and amanda and we went camping. camping with those bitches is the shit. but, the one person that i wanted to go couldnt go... which sucks some balls but its ok. we pissed off some fisherman i guess so what did we get for that? dead fish on some of our ( Read more... )

hell yea... im such a mother-fuckin-rebel! i am on a wireless laptop in my earth/space science class updating this when im supposed to be researching about paleontology. im so stealth. anyways.. tonite... im going to my grandparents house for Roshashana (jewish holidy) and i wont be coming to school tomorrow because of that jewish holiday. im ( Read more... )

yep yep kiddies... thats right... i have just 3 months and 12 days until i turn 18 and can legally leave this shit hole that i live in. i hate my house... i hate how my parents treat me... and, i most of all hate myself when i live here. im thinkin that i would rather be happy then give a shit about how my parents feel. if they are gonna treat ( Read more... )

"yesturday i climbed the stairs and saw a man who wasnt there... he wasnt there again today... i wish i wish he'd go away ( Read more... )

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So... today i quit my job... its so complicating and i feel really bad for it. I also walked over to the church... and i saw patrick. he looks kinda different... his hair is longer and he seems skinnier. but, its so weird because when i saw him... it wasnt like we were together for 2 years. i cant explain it but its kinda like "US" never ( Read more... )