i hate myself more than ever ( Read more... )

don't do it.
don't do it.
don't do it.

did it.

&& another thing(if you're gonna go on a crazy rant, you might as well do it right), why is it that guys only show any interest in me if they are intoxicted by some illegal substance. not that i'm not too. but i still like them in the morning. what is this? i'm not that ugly.

or i guess i am.

thank god for not crying in the middle of school. though i can pretty close in religion. i don't know whats wrong with me && why i let it get to me so much. its happened before. it'll happen again. it's basically my life story. i'm not the kind of girl that any guy wants. it's not a big deal. i've known this for so long. but now it just hurts, just ( Read more... )

attention: i hope you're fucking happy that you accomplished everything that you wanted by showing up here tonight. what do you honestly think is left of me for you to destroy? leave me the fuck alone. 4 years. 4 fucking years && i still can't sleep at night && i still hate you. you've taken everything you can from me.

doing nothing on a friday night. how me of me.

one month ago today i was so proud of myself, well scratch that cus i've started up again && worse than ever, && just in time for summer. god, my head is a mess.

i hate my life. i hate spring break. my family is driving me insane. my friends barely even exist. i used to be fun. people used to like hanging out with me. people used to answer when i called them on the phone. people used to call me. if this break is a preview of what my summer is going to be like, i may have to kill myself.

the only thing worse than the fact that my friends don't have time for me is that my parent constantly bring it up. grfflop. spring break can blow me.

over two months && i must say i'm quite proud of myself.

i almost don't even want to anymore. almost.i really am happy for myself. it'd be nice to share this with someone. but even if i had some real good friends to share this with, i don't think i would tell them anyways. but, it's still a good feeling ( Read more... )

my life has literally emptied its self. i dont know if its me or them or what but my "best friends" have literally abandoned me. i'm so tired of the useless apologies that last for like a weekend until theyre back to ignoring me. why am i no ones first choice? why do all the people who come first in my life rate me as second best? i don't know what ( Read more... )