life is pretty damn good right now. been making cash money at work this past week!! getting tattooed with bunz in 3 weeks! bro tats what! and im also getting my cupcake tattoo cause i am secretly a fat kid who likes cupcakes a lot! so yeah 2 new tattoos next month and then 2 more in april ( Read more... )

so i was upset last i posted...and now i am not. i am in much better spirits these days. the anger has subsided. i am very lucky for the friends i have in my life. ive become really close to some people lately. i feel more normal now than i ever have. my life is back on track. i have a lot of hopeful things coming my way ( Read more... )

i have never been so upset or angry ever in my life. i cant stop crying. i just dont care at all anymore. i want nothing to do with him ever again. he is crazy. the last thing i wanted to do was to hurt him and i did and i tried to make it as painless as possible cause having a broken heart hurts so much as it is. but he wouldnt let it go. he kept ( Read more... )

anyone who knows me well knows im pretty impulsive....i rarely make plans. right now im starting to feel like i did right before i left for colorado. feeling like something isnt right in my life. im super broke, cant pay for school (and i loooove school now and want to be in school and want to finish school), i dont feel very social at all right ( Read more... )

i create my own drama in my life. i dont know why i cant just let myself be happy. for once i actually found someone who is amazing and here i go consiously/subconsiously sabotaging it. ive been holding on to the past, to something thats not even real and all because i have this knack for not feeling like i deserve to be happy or wanted. i mean i ( Read more... )

wow hi lj its been like 2 months. i forgot about you since finally getting a social life again. umm i dont really have much except i got straight a's this last semester. im registered for 3 classes so far next semester and thinking about a 4th. my parents are going to help me pay for school now since i got straight a's and proved i was in it for ( Read more... )

i am really happy! he is fantastic. he came into pf changs sunday night to see me and phillip bought his and his friends meal. all my girls at work kept coming up to me saying good job cari hes so hot...haha yeah he is. and sweet and funny and i adore him ( Read more... )

so last night i met a boy who is pretty rad and we hung out...is it weird he reminds me a lot of ryan and that chris was the one who introduced us?

lots of exciting things in the next month ( Read more... )

im so super bummed right now. i was supposed to be in NYC as of thursday night but when i decided to go to colorado for the summer i decided to save my money. now im just sitting at home balling my eyes out because i just found out my best friend has ovarian cancer and i cant be there for her. as soon as i get out of school in may im on a plane to ( Read more... )