Tuesday evening.. surviving.. trying to get through.. drawing

[carlassean]

Has been a few days since posting..

Have been on a huge emotional rollercoaster..

The evenings are the worst... some days are better than others... wish I could rip my heart out so I stop feeling anything..

Then other times.. I feel nothing..

Then angry and jealous.. and I just want to scream!!!

But, other than all of the above.. I keep working each

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[nverland]

Have you talked to legal aide? They have low cost legal help for family law most places. May not be perfect but they might be able to help

[carlassean]

that's my next step.. I am just having trouble getting past the emotional part...!!
The worst part.. is, we have such passion for each other.. kinda nutter I know.. that is the reason.. I believe he still hasn't gone.. and I haven't thrown his butt out!!
I just do not know what to do at the moment!
If we didn't have such great passion.. I know I would have kicked him to the curb!
Also, reason, I do not think he has actually slept with the gal pal..

lord have mercy.. I am just a mess at the moment!!

Thanks for all the support!! hugs!!

[nverland]

Sweetheart, I'm a 3 time winner. I actually did love all of them at some point. The last one was a shock when it ended, we'd been doing better than we had the 13 years before that. So I really do understand. I wish there was a way to make it easier and better for you, I know there isn't. (((hugs))

[winterlillies]

I'm not sure if your state has it or not, but a lot of student lawyers will take on a case for free to get working hours, etc. You might want to call the state bar and ask them and they'll help you find someone you can afford and get the legal help for free OR call your nearest law school.

[vjezkova]

This state you are in is very stressing and confusing, yes. All distastefully expensive - believe me, I know. Here we say that you only open a door at a lawyer´s office and you are charged with 5.000 CZK. Bastards. But you need them...
Well, dear, make the most of the concert, and hold on!

[foxrafer]

Just wanted to second what nverland said. Hopefully there will be some kind of low-cost legal services in your area that can help you. In any case hang in there; going out with your friends sounds like a perfect thing to do. *hugs*

[justjo2u]

*hugs* honey. It sounds like a really confusing situation. Have some fun with your friends and maybe let the situation ride for a while and see what happens. Take care of yourself and the boys and let the rest sit!

[carlassean]

Thanks so much for being supportive!