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[carmaline]

Do you ever wish for the old days? When you and I and Jocelin and Tristan would lie around on his couch for hours on end? When we'd all light up just because we fancied that the pot smell was getting lost in the walls? Probably the first sign that we didn't need anymore

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[epithet_]

You have good timing. I was just about to turn the computer off for the night. But I guess I can talk to you now. *smiles*

I remember holding you between my legs on the chair in Jocelin's living room before the chair became 'my chair.' Jocelin and Tristan would be splayed across the whole of the couch, except when Tristan got restless and then he would get up and Jocelin would look all put out at having been moved.

Yeah, I think we were friends apart from the drugs. Why do you ask?

[carmaline]

I'm glad I caught you. Do I have you for long?

I just... it's hard to hold a memory on your own. After a while, you start to wonder if you're only idealising what happened, or if you are only remembering the bad parts.

But what you're saying is good. Tell me more?

[epithet_]

You have me for as long as you want me, sweetheart.

I remember times when I'd run my hands up and down your arms, until my touch was too light and you said it tickled and moved away until I brought you back into my arms. I remember Tristan saying something about us being a 'ship. I remember you were the first person I ever loved, after myself. *smirks*

There were the times that you and Jocelin had obviously been talking while I wasn't there. And when I'd come in, there would be some crazy scheme hatched, and Jocelin would look at me as if I couldn't dare be a chicken, and you would come up to me with those big eyes of yours and convinced me to do anything you liked.

I don't think there is any such thing as all the good times or all the bad times. All times were bits of both. And the drugs were very much a part of then. It'd be a lie to pretend anything else.

[carmaline]

All night would be a bad idea then huh, with our school and work?

I loved you so much then. I thought of Jocelin as your best man and Tristan as my maid of honor in some of my more... altered moments. *smiles* And instead of telling you to take care of his 'little sister', it was always a case of me not being allowed to ruin you.

I remember Tristan and me holding hands and skipping, and both of us arguing that he was the most girly of the two of us until we realised that we were both arguing the same point. Unless, well, there were PMT times that he never had to deal with which made me the most girly.

You and Jocelin don't even do that many drugs when I'm not around anymore, though, do you?