Comments | carnivalnights: I am done now

carnivalnights

I am done now

Jul 11, 2010 07:12

Sometimes I really have no idea what the point is. Excuse me for playing victim, but I feel like I spend most of my life not getting what I deserve or having my character and appearance assassinated. I feel like I am constantly defending myself or trying to explain myself. I feel like there are too many people who want to fill the position of ( Read more... )

family, friendship, job hunt, self-esteem

Comments 8

seasoned July 11 2010, 13:14:20 UTC

douchebags. All of them.

I love you. You are too amazing of a person to be feeling this way & to be treated this way. This posts makes me incredibly sad.

carnivalnights July 11 2010, 19:34:25 UTC

Thanks, Cinds. I love you too. <3 I am at a loss with this issue. I just have no idea how to get my life back on track or get people to start treating me with respect. I used to believe in that saying 'you get what you give,' but I have proven that false for years.

Anyway, thank you for our chat the other day and thank you for this. I appreciate it. xo

apori July 11 2010, 19:30:44 UTC

You're such a wonderful and sweet person. The only possible "explanation" I can think of is that bad luck keeps being a factor in your life :(. You're most certainly deserving of loyal, trust worthy friends and family. (I wish I lived closer so I could try and be such a friend.)

carnivalnights July 11 2010, 19:47:02 UTC

You are very sweet. Thank you. <3 That is a very nice thing to say. I have no doubt we would be good friends if you lived here/I lived there. I feel the same way about you. Thank you for saying I am worthy of those things. No matter how much I hate myself sometimes, I feel everyone is worthy of at least a couple of good friends. Maybe one day my time will come. I am just suffering from a severe lack of faith at the moment, and I am not sure if I will pull out of it.

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