so, I keep going back and forth in my thinking. Part of me wants to just sit here and wait.. But the majority knows I can't and that I shouldnt let myself.
And part of me says " Just pretend like you dont need him, dont call him, dont see him.. just leave him out of your life for a while, and maybe he'll realize what he's missing" and part of me ( Read more... )

I am miserable.
But I am strong, and I will make it through..
this just sucks.

Today is a day for being thankful for things.
So this makes me stop and think.. what the hell do i have to be thankful for.
Yes, Ill always be thankful for my family, no matter how bad one of my brothers (or sometimes both) make me feel like a peice of shit.
And no matter how mad I get at my Dad, Ill always be thankful for him because he didnt have ( Read more... )

I finally have a job ( Read more... )

I officially hate switchblades/knifes/ and sharp weapon.
and stupid boys who think its fun to play with them..

anyway- hopefully this Verizon thing is getting taken care of.
THANK YOU JUSTIN!

I need a freaking job and my freaking check.....

why isnt it The end of December yet????

ok, im ready to come home now.

but home to what?
home to a decision that NEEDS to be made, a decision im STILL not ready to make...
home to a father who i dont like
home to schoolwork
home to searching for a job
home to a life im not happy with

so my question to myself is... why even come home?

why?
cause you cant just run away from your problems and ( Read more... )

ughh... why cant i just decide..

stupid boys..

ANYWAY!!!
 inthe next couple of weeks im going to get another Tattoo.. i need your opinion...
which one to get???
this one on my ribcage:

( Read more... )

Why does this decision making this ALWAYS happen to me... with every guy i date..seriously.. this is ridiculous.

why do they always expect me to make this decision in a matter of days????
i cant do this...
im moving to Nashville..

i fucking hate my dad. with a passion.

i need to get the fuck away as soon as i fucking can.