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okay, im feeling an emo post coming on. prepare yourselves.
a lot of things have been going down in my life lately. its all building up, and i really feel like the only person that is going to help me get through this is Jesus Christ. i guess thats natural though, no one on the earth will ever offer you the comfort that He does. but anyways. i cant focus on my school work, a lot of things from my past have started to come back and eat me up on the inside. i keep spacing out and feeling so distant from everything, including God. im guessing thats the root of my problem, but literally all i have time to do is go to school, work, and sleep. i think the most recent time that ive spent time with God in the last month was on sunday night at st. marks, and that was just worship, not one on one me to God time. i miss the peace that i had over teh summer and in the beginning of the school year knowing that i would spend all of my time with Him. me and my parents arent getting along, my dad just got a new job, which is an answered prayer but now ill be picking stuart up from school everyday...which i wont enjoy. ill also have to take him to all of his little scout and tutoring things, and i wont ever get to see my dad cause he works until midnight every night. with the things from my past...me ryan and nick are going through the exact same phase. i dont like it at all. ive given all of these things that ive done to the Lord, and i dont understand why they are starting to affect me again and ruin relationships as well. i havent been feeling too great physically lately either. im sick and ive always got a headach, and theres always a load of crap for me to be doing whether its homework, work or just doing things around the house, theres always something. i plan on going to romania this summer on a mission trip, and i really am looking forward to it, but ive got a lot of money to raise, and its sort of stressful even though i know that if the Lord really wants me there He will get me there. i guess im just asking everyone to pray for me. i need as many as i can get :) thanks for letting me complain...
<3carol
a lot of things have been going down in my life lately. its all building up, and i really feel like the only person that is going to help me get through this is Jesus Christ. i guess thats natural though, no one on the earth will ever offer you the comfort that He does. but anyways. i cant focus on my school work, a lot of things from my past have started to come back and eat me up on the inside. i keep spacing out and feeling so distant from everything, including God. im guessing thats the root of my problem, but literally all i have time to do is go to school, work, and sleep. i think the most recent time that ive spent time with God in the last month was on sunday night at st. marks, and that was just worship, not one on one me to God time. i miss the peace that i had over teh summer and in the beginning of the school year knowing that i would spend all of my time with Him. me and my parents arent getting along, my dad just got a new job, which is an answered prayer but now ill be picking stuart up from school everyday...which i wont enjoy. ill also have to take him to all of his little scout and tutoring things, and i wont ever get to see my dad cause he works until midnight every night. with the things from my past...me ryan and nick are going through the exact same phase. i dont like it at all. ive given all of these things that ive done to the Lord, and i dont understand why they are starting to affect me again and ruin relationships as well. i havent been feeling too great physically lately either. im sick and ive always got a headach, and theres always a load of crap for me to be doing whether its homework, work or just doing things around the house, theres always something. i plan on going to romania this summer on a mission trip, and i really am looking forward to it, but ive got a lot of money to raise, and its sort of stressful even though i know that if the Lord really wants me there He will get me there. i guess im just asking everyone to pray for me. i need as many as i can get :) thanks for letting me complain...
<3carol