Eclipse - Chapter 23. Shattered Dreams
Title: Eclipse
Author: CC
Story: In a love triangle caught in a complex web of power, lies, deception, hatred, and dark obsession, who will pay the highest price to find true happiness?
Rating: Rated R
Warnings: Graphic Sex, Non-Con
Pairing: Kradam
Disclaimer: This is purely fiction.
Word Count: 6048
Chapter 23. Shattered Dreams
Adam saw a young man standing on the beach. Even with the hazy silhouette of his back, he could tell that he was in distress, calling out to somebody on a boat that was already far out into the sea. The cry of anguish that came from the man tore at his heart.
When Adam was only a few steps away from the man, his legs strangely became heavy and his heart fell. He stopped dead in his tracks when he laid eyes on the young man and came face to face with his own image. His blood turned cold when he finally understood the name the young man was calling out in between his heartrending sobs…
“Kris!” He bolted upright and his eyes hurt from the glaring sun shining through the glass window of the airport.
“I’m sorry, Sir,” the flight attendant immediately pulled back, remorseful for waking him up.
Adam squinted his eyes to properly see the owner of the voice. When he saw the uniform she was wearing, he looked guilty for falling asleep in the airport.
“Are you Adam?”
Adam nodded warily. It seemed that every time strangers approached him, all they managed to bring him was bad news.
“Adam, I’m really sorry for not giving you this letter sooner.” She was handing him a folded paper.
When Adam did not move to get it, she continued speaking, “I left in a hurry yesterday and forgot to leave this letter. Your cute friend, Kris, begged me to make sure you receive this.”
After Adam heard Kris’s name, his hand shakily reached out to get it.
“I hope I did not cause any trouble for not delivering it sooner,” the flight attendant gave Adam a warm hopeful smile. She felt relieved when Adam smiled back. “I hope you guys settle everything soon. You look perfect for each other.”
Adam had to smile at the kind words. When he was alone again, he opened the letter with trembling hands.
Adam, nobody could ever imagine how difficult it is for me to leave without you but I leave tonight without my heart knowing that it belongs only to you. No matter what happens, I’ll come back for you. I know I’m being selfish for asking you to do this, but if you still feel the same way, please take the next flight so we could be together. I love you so much. You mean the world to me. -Kris.
A lone teardrop fell on the letter that smudged the ink of Kris’s shaky handwriting. Adam’s breath hitched as he folded the small note between his hands and brought it close to his heart. It was hard to believe that a simple thing as a handwritten note scribbled hastily on an airport stationery could turn things completely around and bring so much hope to Adam.
With a determined purpose in his mind, Adam hurriedly left the airport. There was no time to waste; he had a lot of packing to do.
Adam decided to go straight to his office before heading home to pack. If he would be lucky, he could get his things quickly and leave unnoticed. This would save him the time of explaining why he was fleeing. He didn’t know the exact protocol for resigning from his job, but from the little he knew, he was sure that at the very least he should tender a resignation out of courtesy. However, he chose to disregard protocol and decided to just face head-on whatever consequences might result from his actions. The only thing that mattered was his reunion with Kris.
He walked briskly to his office all the while praying that nobody would notice him. He heaved a big sigh of relief once he was safely inside. When he had almost finished putting the last of his few belongings into his bag, Alex walked into the room.
Adam could not hide the guilt on his face. There was only one interpretation for what he was doing; he was running away-again. Adam bowed his head in shame. He was prepared to accept Alex’s wrath for leaving the party last night and using his car without permission. His muscles tensed in anticipation of the yells and curses that would be thrown his way.
He was thus surprised when he heard nothing of the sort but only a cool, calm voice as Alex spoke to him, “Henry told me that you went to the airport last night.”
When Adam raised his head to see if Alex looked as calm as he sounded, his face was unreadable. He would have preferred to face an angry Alex over this serene façade he chose to wear that could just be covering up his real fury.
Adam swallowed hard before speaking, “Alex… I’m so sorry but I cannot continue to work here anymore.”
There was a long pause before Alex spoke, his face devoid of any emotion, “Are you sure about your decision?”
Adam nodded and replied, “I have learned so much from the few months I stayed here. You’ve been very kind and generous to me. I can’t thank you enough.”
“Well, if I can’t change your mind, there is just one last thing I need you to do for me before I let you go.”
Adam bit his tongue from uttering words of protests. Antagonizing his boss would be a bad move now that his freedom lay solely in his hands. Even if it would delay his plans, Adam agreed thinking that the most important thing at the moment was for Alex to let him go.
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Adam was fidgeting inside the car not knowing where they were heading. There was really nothing he could do but to wait patiently so he could get this over and done with. He couldn’t wait to fly to London to be with Kris. He forced himself to relax and occupied his mind with the refreshing scenery outside. The car was speeding through an exclusive residential area with huge impressive houses in wide, spacious lawns.
The car slowed down as they approached a tall large gate that was opened by a huge man equipped with a radio who acknowledged Alex with a salute. Adam saw two other armed men inside a room adjacent to the gate.
To say that this private estate was big was an understatement. Adam’s eyes swept through the expansive grounds that were covered with numerous lovely gardens. Impressive sculptures could be seen at every turn. The sound of running water from a man-made fountain that fed water to a charming pond caught his attention.
The car finally stopped in front of a huge modern mansion. Adam was awestruck by the beauty of everything around him that he did not notice when Alex opened the door to help him out. He was led into the foyer and once his eyes got accustomed to the dimmer light inside the house, his jaw dropped at the complete and utter size of the magnificent house.
“I have something to show you, Adam,” Alex proceeded to go upstairs expecting Adam to follow without question.
Astounded at the sheer luxury that surrounded him, Adam could only nod in response; it was not just the enormous size of the place that overwhelmed him, but more so, its ornate interior. Expensive decors, sculptures, and paintings that adorned every corner of the foyer gave the mansion an aura of a museum instead of a private home.
Still in the process of taking in the extravagance, the rich colors, and the grandiose of it all, Adam absent-mindedly followed Alex upstairs. His eyes feasted on more precious paintings that lined the walls leading up the wide carpeted spiral staircase.
Adam found himself standing on the landing that extended to a very long corridor so wide a car could drive through it. The tall walls on both sides were bedecked this time with, as Adam surmised, priceless paintings.
“I shouldn’t be surprised that these things would catch your attention,” Alex was suddenly right beside him.
“Oh! I’m sorry, Alex. I didn’t mean to keep you waiting. I just can’t wrap my brain around the fact that one person can have the type of art collection as vast as yours. Some of these pieces,” Adam looked around him in wonder, “I had only seen in books at the library,” he added still looking amazed.
“My father was a patron of the arts. He bought these original pieces in auctions, seeing them as good investments,” Alex said sounding bored. “When he died, instead of selling them, I just decided to keep them, not for their monetary worth, but for their aesthetic value.”
Alex gave him a penetrating gaze and the back of his fingers lightly brushed Adam’s cheeks. “I really like looking at beautiful things.” He chuckled when Adam blushed.
“I’m pretty sure they’re worth a lot…, much more than I could ever earn in my lifetime,” Adam smiled sheepishly and stepped back to hide his embarrassment.
“You can have all these if you want,” Alex said with a look that Adam could not quite put a finger on.
Adam was still trying to digest those strange words when Alex suddenly turned around meaning for him to follow. Adam dismissed the warning signals he momentarily felt in his gut and just followed Alex while quickly scanning the rest of the paintings. He made a mental note to give them a more thorough appreciation later on, and reminded himself that he was not here to lollygag but to work. Adam saw Alex enter one of the rooms and without much thought, followed.
“Don’t hover there, Adam. Come here and take a look at this,” Alex said nonchalantly.
Adam took unsure steps forward. He did not expect to be led into a massive bedroom which he inferred could only belong to his boss.
“While I was in a store yesterday, I found this shirt that I thought would bring out the lovely color of your eyes. Here, I want you to try it on.”
Adam thought that Alex needed him for some work related reasons and he didn’t really expect receiving yet another gift, which made him unable to react. He looked at Alex’s extended arm that was holding the shirt and was quite at a loss for words. When he opened his mouth, he heard himself say, “You want me to try it on… here?”
“Yeah, if it doesn’t fit, we’ll have it replaced.
“Um, I hate to sound rude, Alex, but you shouldn’t really have bothered. You already gave me these watch and bracelet.”
“Why not, I like buying you things. Go ahead, try it on.”
Adam did not really want to try it on, but he did not want to sound ungrateful either, so he agreed, “Alright, but can I use your toilet to change?”
“You can undress here, I won’t look, I promise.”
“I’m sorry to sound prudish, Alex, but I’m not used to getting naked in front of my employer.” He tried to make a joke out of it, but he was really starting to feel very uncomfortable about the situation. Alex was starting to weird him out because the dark look he saw on his face a while ago was back.
Alex’s expression quickly changed and his face softened a bit although his smile did not quite reach his eyes. “Okay, sure. It’s that way,” Alex lightly pointed to the bathroom.
Adam reached out to take the shirt from Alex and locked himself inside the bathroom. When Adam came out, Alex was waiting by the door. “I knew it would look good on you and I got your exact size, too,” Alex sounded satisfied.
Adam was pulled by his wrist in front of a full-length mirror with Alex right behind him, standing too close that Adam could smell his musky scent.
“You know what would look even better, if you leave the top buttons undone, like this.” Alex’s strong arms went around and started unbuttoning them.
Adam felt Alex’s hands lingering more than necessary and he suddenly felt like he was being felt up. He tried to squirm away but the stronger man had his arms completely around him that left Adam stuttering, “Um, Alex, thanks a lot. I really appreciate this, but I have to go now if you have nothing else to talk to me about.”
“Actually, I have another shirt that I also want you to fit. I’ll help you put it on, it’ll just take a sec.” Alex started to undo the remaining buttons of Adam’s shirt.
Adam thought that maybe he was just overreacting-how could he even think that Alex would be sexually interested in him. Surely, he was just being a generous boss. Everyone knew Alex could get any man or woman he wanted. Even without his fiancée, men and women would die to catch his attention and Alex could easily pick from any one of them, so why would he even bother with him. So, he tried to relax before he made a complete fool of himself and just let Alex help him undress.
“I especially picked this one because I think your alabaster skin will stand out with this color and fabric.” Alex helped him with the sleeves and stopped to admire the shirt as it hanged freely open on Adam’s body. Instead of securing the buttons, Alex started touching his exposed skin and brushed his fingers ever so slightly on his nipple.
Adam gasped in surprise and Alex took that opportunity to cover Adam’s parted lips with his mouth; he held the back of his head to stop him from pulling away as he deepened the kiss.
Adam couldn’t believe what was happening; he tried to push Alex away with his fists that were trapped between their bodies. He suddenly realized how much stronger the other man was, because he couldn’t escape his vice-like grip.
It was a rough, desperate kiss that left Adam violated.
“Alex, what are you doing, let me go!” Adam shouted. He was able to free himself from Alex’s embrace and was barely able to run a few feet, when he was grabbed by his arm and held against the wall.
“Shh, Adam, it’s okay. Don’t be scared. I just want to have a little fun. We’ll just make out, I promise,” Alex said breathlessly as he was pressing his hard body against Adam.
“Alex..., please…, I don’t like to...” Adam’s pleas were cut short when Alex kissed him hungrily again while his hands went all over his body. Adam was struggling to break free, but Alex’s strong body pinned him hard against the wall.
When Adam did not stop fighting, he was tossed on the bed and Alex was suddenly on top. He trapped Adam’s arms with his knees to keep him from escaping while Alex removed his own shirt.
The rising panic in Adam’s heart was quickly choking him, making it harder to breathe. The words that had somehow managed to escape through his shallow breathing came out in short irregular gasps, “Alex... don’t... please stop!”
Alex started ravaging him and took no notice of his pleas to stop.
Adam turned his head away to avoid Alex’s attempt to kiss his mouth and continued pushing him away. His struggles and protests were silenced by a quick slap on his face that did not quite hurt so much but still left a red mark on Adam’s cheek. Not used to violence, Adam was shocked and rendered immobile.
Alex held Adam’s head to get his attention. “Stop fighting and let yourself enjoy this. I don’t want to hurt you. We’ll just make out and I’ll not go all the way.”
Adam could not believe what he was hearing, he couldn’t move from the shock of the situation even if he wanted to. Tears stung his eyes, but he kept them at bay. He was not predisposed to revealing his weakness that could be used against him, not if he could help it.
Adam’s body may be paralyzed with fear, but his mind still refused to surrender. He tried to talk Alex out of his plan. His chastity was the only thing he had left to offer Kris, he wouldn’t let anyone, not even Alex, just snatch it away from him to satisfy his own wanton desires.
“Alex…, please…, I have a boyfriend. We’re planning to get married soon.” Adam begged shamelessly.
Alex was not deterred and to show Adam that he always got what he wanted, his hands went underneath the pillows to get the handcuffs that were hidden there. “You are leaving me no choice, Adam.”
When Adam saw what was dangling in Alex’s hands, his fear was momentarily forgotten and he renewed his struggles and fought with all his might to escape from being restrained. But Alex could not be beaten. He easily overpowered Adam and handcuffed both his hands to the headboard. With Adam restrained, he could take his sweet time tasting every inch of the boy’s body.
Adam pulled and tugged at the handcuffs until his wrists felt bruised and raw. Totally helpless, Adam could no longer hold back his tears. “Alex, please you’re hurting me. Why are you doing this?” Adam was trying to understand why such defilement was happening to him. Why did Alex want to hurt him?
In a brief moment of sanity, Adam’s words hit Alex hard. His last remaining vestige of conscience was telling him that he was not a monster who forced people and worse that he was not a rapist. He could just stop it right then and let the poor boy go. But a much stronger voice justifying his actions echoed more loudly to drown his weaker voice of reason,This isn’t rape; it will not be rape if I also let him experience sexual pleasure.
The call of the flesh proved too powerful to be denied; instead of letting Adam go, Alex started marking his neck as he licked, sucked, and nipped at his exposed skin, moaning with pleasure at being able to finally taste Adam.
Adam was already exhausted and too tired to fight but when Alex started removing his belt, he renewed his struggles and started kicking to avoid his hands. “Alex, please… you said we will just make out, please… stop!” Adam’s kicks did not discourage Alex even for just a bit, in fact his struggles fueled his desires even more.
“Be quiet! I just want to see!”
Unable to use his hands to defend himself, Alex easily removed Adam’s shoes and socks. He unzipped and quickly pulled down his pants.
Adam turned his head away at the embarrassment of being exposed in this manner with just his dress shirt and underwear barely covering his nakedness. He also avoided looking at the leering expression on Alex’s face.
Alex was now looking at endless white creamy skin dusted with sensuous freckles that added to Adam’s innocent appearance. Alex thought that he had been right all along-Adam looked beautiful with clothes on, but he looked even more desirable without them. And when he ran his hand on Adam’s firm thigh, it felt soft and smooth under his hand.
Adam thought that if Alex was just interested in making out, he’ll soon get tired and let him go. He hanged on to that hope as he felt Alex’s knees pry his legs apart to settle in between them. He cringed at the mouth that sucked on his stomach, the mouth that kissed his thighs, the mouth that was not Kris’s.
He could do this-imagining it was Kris’s mouth would help him endure the violation until Alex had had enough. Alex said so himself; he just wanted to have a little fun. If he gave him that, surely, he would be satisfied and not ask for more. Adam was thus horrified to feel Alex’s fingers hooking at his brief’s waistband and trying to pull them down. He started begging frantically. “Alex, Oh God, No! You said this was just making out, please stop!” Adam was already sobbing. “Please don’t do this… I haven’t done this before...”
If Adam thought that Alex would take pity on him and let him go, he was greatly mistaken. Alex’s excitement further rose at the idea of being Adam’s first sexual experience. Knowing he would be the first to take Adam drove him more to take him by force. He had never done a virgin before and Adam’s reactions were like fuel further igniting his desire. Seeing the boy so helpless and overpowered finally sealed Adam’s fate to lose his purity not to the one he loved but to somebody who just wanted to use his body.
“Adam, I’ll make you feel good, if you cooperate, it will not hurt as much.” Alex easily undressed him and Adam was now completely naked from the waist below. He would use everything in his bag of tricks to make this a pleasurable experience for Adam. He would show him the power he had over his body and let it betray him. He would awaken Adam’s sensuality.
Alex put Adam’s length into his mouth. To his delight and to Adam’s dismay, the flaccid flesh hardened. Adam was trying to close his thighs to stop Alex, but was quickly losing all his energy to fight. He could not understand the traitorous reaction his body was making.
The delirious sensation of Alex’s tongue caressing his head and the eager lips that stroke his entire length over and over again brought Adam to the edge. As the muscle of his lower body tightened, Alex’s hand replaced his mouth and he continued pumping Adam’s length until all his juice was squeezed out on his flat stomach and Alex’s hand.
Alex closely watched Adam’s beautiful face during his orgasm. His pink moist lips were parted and his startling blue-grey eyes, wet with tears, looked like a bottomless ocean that drowned Alex into the depths of pure sensuality as Adam was betrayed by his own body to surrender to the forbidden desires.
“God, you’re so beautiful, Adam,” Alex whispered in a breathless voice. He unbuckled his own belt and rubbed his stiff erection. Alex’s lust was already out of control. He couldn’t wait anymore to be inside Adam. His fingers were pressing against Adam’s entrance to prepare him to take more of him. He couldn’t wait to break inside Adam’s virgin hole.
“Stop…,” Adam’s voice was pleading.
“Shh,” Alex coated his fingers with lube, “Take a deep breath.”
Adam gasped at the intrusion and felt a sudden discomfort when his opening was breached by Alex’s finger.
“Try to relax, so it won’t hurt much,” Alex was closely studying Adam’s reaction. When his finger could slip in and out smoothly, he gently added another finger.
Adam felt the sting of the added finger and gasped in discomfort. “Alex, please stop, it hurts.”
Another sharp intake of breath told Alex that he had hit Adam’s sweet spot. He pushed his fingers in and out of Adam’s tight hole while making sure to make him forget his pain with pleasure.
Adam’s body was writhing as he tried to pull away from the fingers that were forcing him open. His mind could not understand how his body could feel pleasure in pain. Alex’s fingers slipped out. It was clear to him that Adam was not yet fully prepared to take his much larger erection. He pinned him down with his weight to stop him from pulling away and added more lube to his fingers.
“Adam, stop fighting me. I don’t want to hurt you more.”
Adam froze and held his breath as he felt more fingers forced him open. Tears rolled down his cheeks and he bit his lips to stop himself from screaming in pain as Alex pushed three fingers in and out of his hole.
He already lost all his will to fight. He knew he was beyond help and there was nothing he could do to stop Alex from taking what he wanted. The relief Adam felt when Alex pulled his fingers out was just temporary.
His hands grabbed the short chain that restrained him when he felt Alex pushing inside of him. Despite being prepared, the tight muscles of his hole closed up in tension.
Alex poured more lube and aligned his erection against Adam’s entrance. He pushed with more force and the head finally breached the opening. He halted when he heard Adam whimper in pain. He pushed gradually, an inch at a time until he was completely inside. To be fully encased inside Adam drove him mad with desire. He almost ejaculated prematurely when he started moving inside.
“Fuck, you’re so tight, baby.”Adam’s tight muscles resisted every push he made and the friction it created was a sweet sensation on his hard erection that made him push even deeper.
Adam’s hands hurt from grabbing the short chain of his handcuffs as Alex pounded him with more force, oblivious to the pain he was causing.
“Alex… stop… it really hurts,” Adam pleaded in between gasps of air.
But instead of letting up, Alex covered Adam’s mouth with his and kissed him hungrily. He gripped Adam’s hips hard and pushed one last time before emptying his load inside. Alex grunted like a wild animal as his pulsating erection was deliciously squeezed and milked by Adam’s tight ass.
Alex lay fully satisfied on top of Adam. The powerful release he experienced brought tiny sweet bubbles of excitement in his groin that left him happy and content.
After the aftermath of his violation, Adam lay quietly still, exhausted and shocked at how quickly and cruelly Alex had snatched away all his dreams and shattered them into a million irredeemable pieces. How would he even begin to fix them and regain his life? The remaining part of him that refused to just give up convinced him to continue fighting. When Adam found his courage, he spoke with the remaining strength in his voice, “Alex, get off. I want to go home.” He was squirming from underneath Alex to remove his length that was still inside of him.
Alex slowly raised himself on two arms planted on Adam’s sides and looked down at him and saw that there was still a trace of fight left in Adam.
The vindictive smirk Adam saw on his face sent shivers down his spine. His eyes widened in disbelief when he felt Alex harden inside him again. And despite his pleas and protest, Alex took him for the second time.
Alex had a hidden dark side. Nobody knew that he got a kick out of brandishing his power and tarnishing what’s pure. There had been a few manifestations of this deviant behavior while he was growing up that he tried hard to suppress. But as he grew older, it became harder to deny. He discovered the full extent of his dangerous fixation when he joined the navy. As part of his military training, he had won every single wrestling match not only because of his strength but also because of his strong need to beat and hold down his opponent until it surrendered unequivocally. After every match he would find himself rock hard and aching to relieve the pain in the privacy of the shower stalls.
That was why he found rough sex more gratifying. But it wasn’t enough if he could not completely dominate his partner and make him submit to him fully. For years, he had kept this dark desire buried in the deep recesses of his consciousness where he thought it had been long forgotten until he laid eyes on Adam and all hell broke loose.
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Alex knocked back the strong drink in his hand. There was no feeling of remorse from what he had committed. He had made Adam his and had stolen his purity and innocence. Anyone would think that after taking Adam twice, he would have felt sated, but the sight of Adam still restrained on the bed, eyes pleading to be released, body bent to cover his half nakedness was doing strange things again to his groin.
He approached the terrified boy. Adam flinched when Alex checked the tender swollen flesh around his wrist. Alex could clearly see that Adam was on the brink of a breakdown with the last remnant of his pride hanging precariously by a delicate thread that could easily snap at any time. Even in this condition, Adam’s beauty still took his breath away. When he sat down beside the bed, Adam moved as far away from him as possible. It was like his touch burned him.
“No… please… let me go,” Adam’s weak voice struggled to come out of his throat as he felt all choked up when Alex moved on top of him to straddle his body. He could not bear the thought of Alex taking him again. He felt sore all over especially on his backside.
Adam watched motionless as Alex unlocked his handcuffs. When he brought his arms down, he winced in pain as thousands of invisible needles pricked his shoulders and arms. Realizing his vulnerable condition, he disregarded the pain he felt all over and mustered all his remaining strength to get up. But his attempt was blocked by Alex as he pushed him down and rolled him over on his stomach. Alex forcibly removed his shirt and left him totally naked.
Adam screamed in pain as Alex penetrated him again from behind. He scrambled to break free but his neck was held down to prevent him from moving. His nails broke the skin of his palms with the force he used to grab the sheets as Alex moved inside him repeatedly, using his body like an object of lust.
When Alex came inside him for the third time, he lightly buried his teeth on Adam’s neck, marking him and muffling his shouts of pleasure. And when the tremors of his body subsided from the intensity of his orgasm, he nursed the bruises left by his teeth by kissing the marks gently. By the time Alex pulled out, Adam broke down and was sobbing like a child. His body was shaking all over.
“Come here, Adam. It’s okay, I’m right here.” Alex covered Adam with a blanket and held him possessively in his arms.
“I wanna... go home,” Adam mumbled through his sobs.
“Adam, this is home, go to sleep. You’re very tired.” He ran his hands through Adam’s thick hair to comfort him.
After his defilement, Adam was in dire need of warm loving hands that could get rid of the chill that had somehow managed to seep and spread down to his core. The shock was too much for his brain to handle, he just wanted to escape and be numbed to all the pain. No matter how twisted and bizarre it must have felt, he sought the warm heat of Alex’s body like a moth’s fatal attraction to flame, the very hands that soiled him were the very hands he needed at that very moment to keep him sane and he surrendered to the promise of comfort offered by Alex’s strong arms and lost himself in sleep.
It took a while for the tremors racking Adam’s body to subside. After the sobs had turned to short intermittent gasps, down to tiny indiscernible sniffs, Alex knew Adam was finally asleep by his quiet even breathing.
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After coming down from the greatest height of sexual pleasure Alex had ever experienced for taking Adam, he was convinced that he did the right thing.
In his bed is where Adam belonged-to give him pleasure as much as to receive pleasure from him. He looked at Adam’s beautiful face and body sprawled gloriously in his bed. His thick hair fell on his forehead and partially covered his eyes. He was lying on his stomach; the satin sheet covering his lower body had moved up to reveal his strong thighs and long legs. Lovely freckles covered his shoulders and back and continued down to the curve of his ass that disappeared underneath the smooth expensive sheet that fell softly down his narrow hips.
Adam slowly opened his eyes and saw Alex watching him. He had hoped that everything had just been a horrifying nightmare but the soreness on his backside and the ache he felt all over his body were painful reminders of what had been stolen from him. He shut his eyes tight to keep from crying. Adam thought that he must have been out for a while. When he saw Alex already dressed, he found himself at a disadvantage lying naked and exposed on the bed.
“There is warm food on the table,” Alex said in a casual voice as if he hadn’t done anything atrocious.
Adam slowly sat up and pulled the sheet up to cover his nakedness. There were red marks around both of his wrists. It would be a thousand times easier to move without Alex’s eyes trained on him. He was thankful for the lock of hair that fell on his face since it partly hid his face from view. He kept his head down, too embarrassed to look at Alex and be reminded of how he was used like his personal sex toy.
He wrapped the blanket securely around his body and looked around for his clothes. He quickly tore his eyes away from the bright red blood on the sheet that was another ugly reminder that the virginity he had long protected to offer to Kris was gone.
When Alex did not make any move to stop him, Adam quickly picked up his clothes and rushed to the toilet to get dress. He had to leave as soon as possible before Alex decided he had not had enough of his body. There was only one thing on Adam’s mind and that was to leave the house and stay as far away as possible from Alex. He was slightly limping when he walked back to the bedroom. He held his breath when he saw Alex approached him.
“Here’s a check for fifty thousand dollars.” Alex was handing it to him.
Adam felt like a knife had been driven hard into his heart. Tears quietly rolled down his face. Is that how much he was worth? Fifty thousand dollars? Was his virginity for sale?
“I know you need the money and you can have more.” Alex folded the check and pushed it down Adam’s pocket when he refused to move.
Adam flinched at the contact but Alex held him close. He lifted his chin up to force him to make eye contact with him. “You’re mine now, Adam. Don’t be scared. I’ll take care of you.” He brushed his lips with his thumb and brought his head down to kiss his lips. One hand held the back of Adam’s neck and the other hand pulled his lower back to deepen the kiss. Alex pushed his tongue between his lips and Adam did not have any choice but to allow Alex to lay a claim on him.
Alex let him go and took a tube from the dresser and put it inside Adam’s bag. “I want you to apply this where it hurts. The pain will go away soon; it will feel so much better next time, I promise.”
Adam simply nodded; he felt like he was floating in space and looking down at his own physical body, a hollow vessel, strangely calm. Adam thought, I must be going into shock. Is this my body’s way of ensuring my survival?
A voice inside his head told him that there was no point in arguing. If he wanted to escape, he had to play along and let Alex believe that he was agreeing to everything.
“May I go home now?” His own monotone voice sounded foreign to Adam like it came from the deepest, darkest unexplored depths of his soul. Adam did not hear Alex’s response. His entire body, in a suspended reaction, started trembling violently with an ugly terrifying realization that he was no longer the same person that Kris fell in love with.
Within a fraction of a millisecond, faster than his eyes could blink, all the bright colors in his surroundings were replaced by a dim cold grey haze that descended upon him like a cloak of death, blinding and stealing away all warmth and hope. As Adam grappled with the intensity of this debilitating sensation, he had come to one final understanding: Death would be a less painful alternative than a lifetime without Kris.
Author: CC
Story: In a love triangle caught in a complex web of power, lies, deception, hatred, and dark obsession, who will pay the highest price to find true happiness?
Rating: Rated R
Warnings: Graphic Sex, Non-Con
Pairing: Kradam
Disclaimer: This is purely fiction.
Word Count: 6048
Chapter 23. Shattered Dreams
Adam saw a young man standing on the beach. Even with the hazy silhouette of his back, he could tell that he was in distress, calling out to somebody on a boat that was already far out into the sea. The cry of anguish that came from the man tore at his heart.
When Adam was only a few steps away from the man, his legs strangely became heavy and his heart fell. He stopped dead in his tracks when he laid eyes on the young man and came face to face with his own image. His blood turned cold when he finally understood the name the young man was calling out in between his heartrending sobs…
“Kris!” He bolted upright and his eyes hurt from the glaring sun shining through the glass window of the airport.
“I’m sorry, Sir,” the flight attendant immediately pulled back, remorseful for waking him up.
Adam squinted his eyes to properly see the owner of the voice. When he saw the uniform she was wearing, he looked guilty for falling asleep in the airport.
“Are you Adam?”
Adam nodded warily. It seemed that every time strangers approached him, all they managed to bring him was bad news.
“Adam, I’m really sorry for not giving you this letter sooner.” She was handing him a folded paper.
When Adam did not move to get it, she continued speaking, “I left in a hurry yesterday and forgot to leave this letter. Your cute friend, Kris, begged me to make sure you receive this.”
After Adam heard Kris’s name, his hand shakily reached out to get it.
“I hope I did not cause any trouble for not delivering it sooner,” the flight attendant gave Adam a warm hopeful smile. She felt relieved when Adam smiled back. “I hope you guys settle everything soon. You look perfect for each other.”
Adam had to smile at the kind words. When he was alone again, he opened the letter with trembling hands.
Adam, nobody could ever imagine how difficult it is for me to leave without you but I leave tonight without my heart knowing that it belongs only to you. No matter what happens, I’ll come back for you. I know I’m being selfish for asking you to do this, but if you still feel the same way, please take the next flight so we could be together. I love you so much. You mean the world to me. -Kris.
A lone teardrop fell on the letter that smudged the ink of Kris’s shaky handwriting. Adam’s breath hitched as he folded the small note between his hands and brought it close to his heart. It was hard to believe that a simple thing as a handwritten note scribbled hastily on an airport stationery could turn things completely around and bring so much hope to Adam.
With a determined purpose in his mind, Adam hurriedly left the airport. There was no time to waste; he had a lot of packing to do.
Adam decided to go straight to his office before heading home to pack. If he would be lucky, he could get his things quickly and leave unnoticed. This would save him the time of explaining why he was fleeing. He didn’t know the exact protocol for resigning from his job, but from the little he knew, he was sure that at the very least he should tender a resignation out of courtesy. However, he chose to disregard protocol and decided to just face head-on whatever consequences might result from his actions. The only thing that mattered was his reunion with Kris.
He walked briskly to his office all the while praying that nobody would notice him. He heaved a big sigh of relief once he was safely inside. When he had almost finished putting the last of his few belongings into his bag, Alex walked into the room.
Adam could not hide the guilt on his face. There was only one interpretation for what he was doing; he was running away-again. Adam bowed his head in shame. He was prepared to accept Alex’s wrath for leaving the party last night and using his car without permission. His muscles tensed in anticipation of the yells and curses that would be thrown his way.
He was thus surprised when he heard nothing of the sort but only a cool, calm voice as Alex spoke to him, “Henry told me that you went to the airport last night.”
When Adam raised his head to see if Alex looked as calm as he sounded, his face was unreadable. He would have preferred to face an angry Alex over this serene façade he chose to wear that could just be covering up his real fury.
Adam swallowed hard before speaking, “Alex… I’m so sorry but I cannot continue to work here anymore.”
There was a long pause before Alex spoke, his face devoid of any emotion, “Are you sure about your decision?”
Adam nodded and replied, “I have learned so much from the few months I stayed here. You’ve been very kind and generous to me. I can’t thank you enough.”
“Well, if I can’t change your mind, there is just one last thing I need you to do for me before I let you go.”
Adam bit his tongue from uttering words of protests. Antagonizing his boss would be a bad move now that his freedom lay solely in his hands. Even if it would delay his plans, Adam agreed thinking that the most important thing at the moment was for Alex to let him go.
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Adam was fidgeting inside the car not knowing where they were heading. There was really nothing he could do but to wait patiently so he could get this over and done with. He couldn’t wait to fly to London to be with Kris. He forced himself to relax and occupied his mind with the refreshing scenery outside. The car was speeding through an exclusive residential area with huge impressive houses in wide, spacious lawns.
The car slowed down as they approached a tall large gate that was opened by a huge man equipped with a radio who acknowledged Alex with a salute. Adam saw two other armed men inside a room adjacent to the gate.
To say that this private estate was big was an understatement. Adam’s eyes swept through the expansive grounds that were covered with numerous lovely gardens. Impressive sculptures could be seen at every turn. The sound of running water from a man-made fountain that fed water to a charming pond caught his attention.
The car finally stopped in front of a huge modern mansion. Adam was awestruck by the beauty of everything around him that he did not notice when Alex opened the door to help him out. He was led into the foyer and once his eyes got accustomed to the dimmer light inside the house, his jaw dropped at the complete and utter size of the magnificent house.
“I have something to show you, Adam,” Alex proceeded to go upstairs expecting Adam to follow without question.
Astounded at the sheer luxury that surrounded him, Adam could only nod in response; it was not just the enormous size of the place that overwhelmed him, but more so, its ornate interior. Expensive decors, sculptures, and paintings that adorned every corner of the foyer gave the mansion an aura of a museum instead of a private home.
Still in the process of taking in the extravagance, the rich colors, and the grandiose of it all, Adam absent-mindedly followed Alex upstairs. His eyes feasted on more precious paintings that lined the walls leading up the wide carpeted spiral staircase.
Adam found himself standing on the landing that extended to a very long corridor so wide a car could drive through it. The tall walls on both sides were bedecked this time with, as Adam surmised, priceless paintings.
“I shouldn’t be surprised that these things would catch your attention,” Alex was suddenly right beside him.
“Oh! I’m sorry, Alex. I didn’t mean to keep you waiting. I just can’t wrap my brain around the fact that one person can have the type of art collection as vast as yours. Some of these pieces,” Adam looked around him in wonder, “I had only seen in books at the library,” he added still looking amazed.
“My father was a patron of the arts. He bought these original pieces in auctions, seeing them as good investments,” Alex said sounding bored. “When he died, instead of selling them, I just decided to keep them, not for their monetary worth, but for their aesthetic value.”
Alex gave him a penetrating gaze and the back of his fingers lightly brushed Adam’s cheeks. “I really like looking at beautiful things.” He chuckled when Adam blushed.
“I’m pretty sure they’re worth a lot…, much more than I could ever earn in my lifetime,” Adam smiled sheepishly and stepped back to hide his embarrassment.
“You can have all these if you want,” Alex said with a look that Adam could not quite put a finger on.
Adam was still trying to digest those strange words when Alex suddenly turned around meaning for him to follow. Adam dismissed the warning signals he momentarily felt in his gut and just followed Alex while quickly scanning the rest of the paintings. He made a mental note to give them a more thorough appreciation later on, and reminded himself that he was not here to lollygag but to work. Adam saw Alex enter one of the rooms and without much thought, followed.
“Don’t hover there, Adam. Come here and take a look at this,” Alex said nonchalantly.
Adam took unsure steps forward. He did not expect to be led into a massive bedroom which he inferred could only belong to his boss.
“While I was in a store yesterday, I found this shirt that I thought would bring out the lovely color of your eyes. Here, I want you to try it on.”
Adam thought that Alex needed him for some work related reasons and he didn’t really expect receiving yet another gift, which made him unable to react. He looked at Alex’s extended arm that was holding the shirt and was quite at a loss for words. When he opened his mouth, he heard himself say, “You want me to try it on… here?”
“Yeah, if it doesn’t fit, we’ll have it replaced.
“Um, I hate to sound rude, Alex, but you shouldn’t really have bothered. You already gave me these watch and bracelet.”
“Why not, I like buying you things. Go ahead, try it on.”
Adam did not really want to try it on, but he did not want to sound ungrateful either, so he agreed, “Alright, but can I use your toilet to change?”
“You can undress here, I won’t look, I promise.”
“I’m sorry to sound prudish, Alex, but I’m not used to getting naked in front of my employer.” He tried to make a joke out of it, but he was really starting to feel very uncomfortable about the situation. Alex was starting to weird him out because the dark look he saw on his face a while ago was back.
Alex’s expression quickly changed and his face softened a bit although his smile did not quite reach his eyes. “Okay, sure. It’s that way,” Alex lightly pointed to the bathroom.
Adam reached out to take the shirt from Alex and locked himself inside the bathroom. When Adam came out, Alex was waiting by the door. “I knew it would look good on you and I got your exact size, too,” Alex sounded satisfied.
Adam was pulled by his wrist in front of a full-length mirror with Alex right behind him, standing too close that Adam could smell his musky scent.
“You know what would look even better, if you leave the top buttons undone, like this.” Alex’s strong arms went around and started unbuttoning them.
Adam felt Alex’s hands lingering more than necessary and he suddenly felt like he was being felt up. He tried to squirm away but the stronger man had his arms completely around him that left Adam stuttering, “Um, Alex, thanks a lot. I really appreciate this, but I have to go now if you have nothing else to talk to me about.”
“Actually, I have another shirt that I also want you to fit. I’ll help you put it on, it’ll just take a sec.” Alex started to undo the remaining buttons of Adam’s shirt.
Adam thought that maybe he was just overreacting-how could he even think that Alex would be sexually interested in him. Surely, he was just being a generous boss. Everyone knew Alex could get any man or woman he wanted. Even without his fiancée, men and women would die to catch his attention and Alex could easily pick from any one of them, so why would he even bother with him. So, he tried to relax before he made a complete fool of himself and just let Alex help him undress.
“I especially picked this one because I think your alabaster skin will stand out with this color and fabric.” Alex helped him with the sleeves and stopped to admire the shirt as it hanged freely open on Adam’s body. Instead of securing the buttons, Alex started touching his exposed skin and brushed his fingers ever so slightly on his nipple.
Adam gasped in surprise and Alex took that opportunity to cover Adam’s parted lips with his mouth; he held the back of his head to stop him from pulling away as he deepened the kiss.
Adam couldn’t believe what was happening; he tried to push Alex away with his fists that were trapped between their bodies. He suddenly realized how much stronger the other man was, because he couldn’t escape his vice-like grip.
It was a rough, desperate kiss that left Adam violated.
“Alex, what are you doing, let me go!” Adam shouted. He was able to free himself from Alex’s embrace and was barely able to run a few feet, when he was grabbed by his arm and held against the wall.
“Shh, Adam, it’s okay. Don’t be scared. I just want to have a little fun. We’ll just make out, I promise,” Alex said breathlessly as he was pressing his hard body against Adam.
“Alex..., please…, I don’t like to...” Adam’s pleas were cut short when Alex kissed him hungrily again while his hands went all over his body. Adam was struggling to break free, but Alex’s strong body pinned him hard against the wall.
When Adam did not stop fighting, he was tossed on the bed and Alex was suddenly on top. He trapped Adam’s arms with his knees to keep him from escaping while Alex removed his own shirt.
The rising panic in Adam’s heart was quickly choking him, making it harder to breathe. The words that had somehow managed to escape through his shallow breathing came out in short irregular gasps, “Alex... don’t... please stop!”
Alex started ravaging him and took no notice of his pleas to stop.
Adam turned his head away to avoid Alex’s attempt to kiss his mouth and continued pushing him away. His struggles and protests were silenced by a quick slap on his face that did not quite hurt so much but still left a red mark on Adam’s cheek. Not used to violence, Adam was shocked and rendered immobile.
Alex held Adam’s head to get his attention. “Stop fighting and let yourself enjoy this. I don’t want to hurt you. We’ll just make out and I’ll not go all the way.”
Adam could not believe what he was hearing, he couldn’t move from the shock of the situation even if he wanted to. Tears stung his eyes, but he kept them at bay. He was not predisposed to revealing his weakness that could be used against him, not if he could help it.
Adam’s body may be paralyzed with fear, but his mind still refused to surrender. He tried to talk Alex out of his plan. His chastity was the only thing he had left to offer Kris, he wouldn’t let anyone, not even Alex, just snatch it away from him to satisfy his own wanton desires.
“Alex…, please…, I have a boyfriend. We’re planning to get married soon.” Adam begged shamelessly.
Alex was not deterred and to show Adam that he always got what he wanted, his hands went underneath the pillows to get the handcuffs that were hidden there. “You are leaving me no choice, Adam.”
When Adam saw what was dangling in Alex’s hands, his fear was momentarily forgotten and he renewed his struggles and fought with all his might to escape from being restrained. But Alex could not be beaten. He easily overpowered Adam and handcuffed both his hands to the headboard. With Adam restrained, he could take his sweet time tasting every inch of the boy’s body.
Adam pulled and tugged at the handcuffs until his wrists felt bruised and raw. Totally helpless, Adam could no longer hold back his tears. “Alex, please you’re hurting me. Why are you doing this?” Adam was trying to understand why such defilement was happening to him. Why did Alex want to hurt him?
In a brief moment of sanity, Adam’s words hit Alex hard. His last remaining vestige of conscience was telling him that he was not a monster who forced people and worse that he was not a rapist. He could just stop it right then and let the poor boy go. But a much stronger voice justifying his actions echoed more loudly to drown his weaker voice of reason,This isn’t rape; it will not be rape if I also let him experience sexual pleasure.
The call of the flesh proved too powerful to be denied; instead of letting Adam go, Alex started marking his neck as he licked, sucked, and nipped at his exposed skin, moaning with pleasure at being able to finally taste Adam.
Adam was already exhausted and too tired to fight but when Alex started removing his belt, he renewed his struggles and started kicking to avoid his hands. “Alex, please… you said we will just make out, please… stop!” Adam’s kicks did not discourage Alex even for just a bit, in fact his struggles fueled his desires even more.
“Be quiet! I just want to see!”
Unable to use his hands to defend himself, Alex easily removed Adam’s shoes and socks. He unzipped and quickly pulled down his pants.
Adam turned his head away at the embarrassment of being exposed in this manner with just his dress shirt and underwear barely covering his nakedness. He also avoided looking at the leering expression on Alex’s face.
Alex was now looking at endless white creamy skin dusted with sensuous freckles that added to Adam’s innocent appearance. Alex thought that he had been right all along-Adam looked beautiful with clothes on, but he looked even more desirable without them. And when he ran his hand on Adam’s firm thigh, it felt soft and smooth under his hand.
Adam thought that if Alex was just interested in making out, he’ll soon get tired and let him go. He hanged on to that hope as he felt Alex’s knees pry his legs apart to settle in between them. He cringed at the mouth that sucked on his stomach, the mouth that kissed his thighs, the mouth that was not Kris’s.
He could do this-imagining it was Kris’s mouth would help him endure the violation until Alex had had enough. Alex said so himself; he just wanted to have a little fun. If he gave him that, surely, he would be satisfied and not ask for more. Adam was thus horrified to feel Alex’s fingers hooking at his brief’s waistband and trying to pull them down. He started begging frantically. “Alex, Oh God, No! You said this was just making out, please stop!” Adam was already sobbing. “Please don’t do this… I haven’t done this before...”
If Adam thought that Alex would take pity on him and let him go, he was greatly mistaken. Alex’s excitement further rose at the idea of being Adam’s first sexual experience. Knowing he would be the first to take Adam drove him more to take him by force. He had never done a virgin before and Adam’s reactions were like fuel further igniting his desire. Seeing the boy so helpless and overpowered finally sealed Adam’s fate to lose his purity not to the one he loved but to somebody who just wanted to use his body.
“Adam, I’ll make you feel good, if you cooperate, it will not hurt as much.” Alex easily undressed him and Adam was now completely naked from the waist below. He would use everything in his bag of tricks to make this a pleasurable experience for Adam. He would show him the power he had over his body and let it betray him. He would awaken Adam’s sensuality.
Alex put Adam’s length into his mouth. To his delight and to Adam’s dismay, the flaccid flesh hardened. Adam was trying to close his thighs to stop Alex, but was quickly losing all his energy to fight. He could not understand the traitorous reaction his body was making.
The delirious sensation of Alex’s tongue caressing his head and the eager lips that stroke his entire length over and over again brought Adam to the edge. As the muscle of his lower body tightened, Alex’s hand replaced his mouth and he continued pumping Adam’s length until all his juice was squeezed out on his flat stomach and Alex’s hand.
Alex closely watched Adam’s beautiful face during his orgasm. His pink moist lips were parted and his startling blue-grey eyes, wet with tears, looked like a bottomless ocean that drowned Alex into the depths of pure sensuality as Adam was betrayed by his own body to surrender to the forbidden desires.
“God, you’re so beautiful, Adam,” Alex whispered in a breathless voice. He unbuckled his own belt and rubbed his stiff erection. Alex’s lust was already out of control. He couldn’t wait anymore to be inside Adam. His fingers were pressing against Adam’s entrance to prepare him to take more of him. He couldn’t wait to break inside Adam’s virgin hole.
“Stop…,” Adam’s voice was pleading.
“Shh,” Alex coated his fingers with lube, “Take a deep breath.”
Adam gasped at the intrusion and felt a sudden discomfort when his opening was breached by Alex’s finger.
“Try to relax, so it won’t hurt much,” Alex was closely studying Adam’s reaction. When his finger could slip in and out smoothly, he gently added another finger.
Adam felt the sting of the added finger and gasped in discomfort. “Alex, please stop, it hurts.”
Another sharp intake of breath told Alex that he had hit Adam’s sweet spot. He pushed his fingers in and out of Adam’s tight hole while making sure to make him forget his pain with pleasure.
Adam’s body was writhing as he tried to pull away from the fingers that were forcing him open. His mind could not understand how his body could feel pleasure in pain. Alex’s fingers slipped out. It was clear to him that Adam was not yet fully prepared to take his much larger erection. He pinned him down with his weight to stop him from pulling away and added more lube to his fingers.
“Adam, stop fighting me. I don’t want to hurt you more.”
Adam froze and held his breath as he felt more fingers forced him open. Tears rolled down his cheeks and he bit his lips to stop himself from screaming in pain as Alex pushed three fingers in and out of his hole.
He already lost all his will to fight. He knew he was beyond help and there was nothing he could do to stop Alex from taking what he wanted. The relief Adam felt when Alex pulled his fingers out was just temporary.
His hands grabbed the short chain that restrained him when he felt Alex pushing inside of him. Despite being prepared, the tight muscles of his hole closed up in tension.
Alex poured more lube and aligned his erection against Adam’s entrance. He pushed with more force and the head finally breached the opening. He halted when he heard Adam whimper in pain. He pushed gradually, an inch at a time until he was completely inside. To be fully encased inside Adam drove him mad with desire. He almost ejaculated prematurely when he started moving inside.
“Fuck, you’re so tight, baby.”Adam’s tight muscles resisted every push he made and the friction it created was a sweet sensation on his hard erection that made him push even deeper.
Adam’s hands hurt from grabbing the short chain of his handcuffs as Alex pounded him with more force, oblivious to the pain he was causing.
“Alex… stop… it really hurts,” Adam pleaded in between gasps of air.
But instead of letting up, Alex covered Adam’s mouth with his and kissed him hungrily. He gripped Adam’s hips hard and pushed one last time before emptying his load inside. Alex grunted like a wild animal as his pulsating erection was deliciously squeezed and milked by Adam’s tight ass.
Alex lay fully satisfied on top of Adam. The powerful release he experienced brought tiny sweet bubbles of excitement in his groin that left him happy and content.
After the aftermath of his violation, Adam lay quietly still, exhausted and shocked at how quickly and cruelly Alex had snatched away all his dreams and shattered them into a million irredeemable pieces. How would he even begin to fix them and regain his life? The remaining part of him that refused to just give up convinced him to continue fighting. When Adam found his courage, he spoke with the remaining strength in his voice, “Alex, get off. I want to go home.” He was squirming from underneath Alex to remove his length that was still inside of him.
Alex slowly raised himself on two arms planted on Adam’s sides and looked down at him and saw that there was still a trace of fight left in Adam.
The vindictive smirk Adam saw on his face sent shivers down his spine. His eyes widened in disbelief when he felt Alex harden inside him again. And despite his pleas and protest, Alex took him for the second time.
Alex had a hidden dark side. Nobody knew that he got a kick out of brandishing his power and tarnishing what’s pure. There had been a few manifestations of this deviant behavior while he was growing up that he tried hard to suppress. But as he grew older, it became harder to deny. He discovered the full extent of his dangerous fixation when he joined the navy. As part of his military training, he had won every single wrestling match not only because of his strength but also because of his strong need to beat and hold down his opponent until it surrendered unequivocally. After every match he would find himself rock hard and aching to relieve the pain in the privacy of the shower stalls.
That was why he found rough sex more gratifying. But it wasn’t enough if he could not completely dominate his partner and make him submit to him fully. For years, he had kept this dark desire buried in the deep recesses of his consciousness where he thought it had been long forgotten until he laid eyes on Adam and all hell broke loose.
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Alex knocked back the strong drink in his hand. There was no feeling of remorse from what he had committed. He had made Adam his and had stolen his purity and innocence. Anyone would think that after taking Adam twice, he would have felt sated, but the sight of Adam still restrained on the bed, eyes pleading to be released, body bent to cover his half nakedness was doing strange things again to his groin.
He approached the terrified boy. Adam flinched when Alex checked the tender swollen flesh around his wrist. Alex could clearly see that Adam was on the brink of a breakdown with the last remnant of his pride hanging precariously by a delicate thread that could easily snap at any time. Even in this condition, Adam’s beauty still took his breath away. When he sat down beside the bed, Adam moved as far away from him as possible. It was like his touch burned him.
“No… please… let me go,” Adam’s weak voice struggled to come out of his throat as he felt all choked up when Alex moved on top of him to straddle his body. He could not bear the thought of Alex taking him again. He felt sore all over especially on his backside.
Adam watched motionless as Alex unlocked his handcuffs. When he brought his arms down, he winced in pain as thousands of invisible needles pricked his shoulders and arms. Realizing his vulnerable condition, he disregarded the pain he felt all over and mustered all his remaining strength to get up. But his attempt was blocked by Alex as he pushed him down and rolled him over on his stomach. Alex forcibly removed his shirt and left him totally naked.
Adam screamed in pain as Alex penetrated him again from behind. He scrambled to break free but his neck was held down to prevent him from moving. His nails broke the skin of his palms with the force he used to grab the sheets as Alex moved inside him repeatedly, using his body like an object of lust.
When Alex came inside him for the third time, he lightly buried his teeth on Adam’s neck, marking him and muffling his shouts of pleasure. And when the tremors of his body subsided from the intensity of his orgasm, he nursed the bruises left by his teeth by kissing the marks gently. By the time Alex pulled out, Adam broke down and was sobbing like a child. His body was shaking all over.
“Come here, Adam. It’s okay, I’m right here.” Alex covered Adam with a blanket and held him possessively in his arms.
“I wanna... go home,” Adam mumbled through his sobs.
“Adam, this is home, go to sleep. You’re very tired.” He ran his hands through Adam’s thick hair to comfort him.
After his defilement, Adam was in dire need of warm loving hands that could get rid of the chill that had somehow managed to seep and spread down to his core. The shock was too much for his brain to handle, he just wanted to escape and be numbed to all the pain. No matter how twisted and bizarre it must have felt, he sought the warm heat of Alex’s body like a moth’s fatal attraction to flame, the very hands that soiled him were the very hands he needed at that very moment to keep him sane and he surrendered to the promise of comfort offered by Alex’s strong arms and lost himself in sleep.
It took a while for the tremors racking Adam’s body to subside. After the sobs had turned to short intermittent gasps, down to tiny indiscernible sniffs, Alex knew Adam was finally asleep by his quiet even breathing.
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After coming down from the greatest height of sexual pleasure Alex had ever experienced for taking Adam, he was convinced that he did the right thing.
In his bed is where Adam belonged-to give him pleasure as much as to receive pleasure from him. He looked at Adam’s beautiful face and body sprawled gloriously in his bed. His thick hair fell on his forehead and partially covered his eyes. He was lying on his stomach; the satin sheet covering his lower body had moved up to reveal his strong thighs and long legs. Lovely freckles covered his shoulders and back and continued down to the curve of his ass that disappeared underneath the smooth expensive sheet that fell softly down his narrow hips.
Adam slowly opened his eyes and saw Alex watching him. He had hoped that everything had just been a horrifying nightmare but the soreness on his backside and the ache he felt all over his body were painful reminders of what had been stolen from him. He shut his eyes tight to keep from crying. Adam thought that he must have been out for a while. When he saw Alex already dressed, he found himself at a disadvantage lying naked and exposed on the bed.
“There is warm food on the table,” Alex said in a casual voice as if he hadn’t done anything atrocious.
Adam slowly sat up and pulled the sheet up to cover his nakedness. There were red marks around both of his wrists. It would be a thousand times easier to move without Alex’s eyes trained on him. He was thankful for the lock of hair that fell on his face since it partly hid his face from view. He kept his head down, too embarrassed to look at Alex and be reminded of how he was used like his personal sex toy.
He wrapped the blanket securely around his body and looked around for his clothes. He quickly tore his eyes away from the bright red blood on the sheet that was another ugly reminder that the virginity he had long protected to offer to Kris was gone.
When Alex did not make any move to stop him, Adam quickly picked up his clothes and rushed to the toilet to get dress. He had to leave as soon as possible before Alex decided he had not had enough of his body. There was only one thing on Adam’s mind and that was to leave the house and stay as far away as possible from Alex. He was slightly limping when he walked back to the bedroom. He held his breath when he saw Alex approached him.
“Here’s a check for fifty thousand dollars.” Alex was handing it to him.
Adam felt like a knife had been driven hard into his heart. Tears quietly rolled down his face. Is that how much he was worth? Fifty thousand dollars? Was his virginity for sale?
“I know you need the money and you can have more.” Alex folded the check and pushed it down Adam’s pocket when he refused to move.
Adam flinched at the contact but Alex held him close. He lifted his chin up to force him to make eye contact with him. “You’re mine now, Adam. Don’t be scared. I’ll take care of you.” He brushed his lips with his thumb and brought his head down to kiss his lips. One hand held the back of Adam’s neck and the other hand pulled his lower back to deepen the kiss. Alex pushed his tongue between his lips and Adam did not have any choice but to allow Alex to lay a claim on him.
Alex let him go and took a tube from the dresser and put it inside Adam’s bag. “I want you to apply this where it hurts. The pain will go away soon; it will feel so much better next time, I promise.”
Adam simply nodded; he felt like he was floating in space and looking down at his own physical body, a hollow vessel, strangely calm. Adam thought, I must be going into shock. Is this my body’s way of ensuring my survival?
A voice inside his head told him that there was no point in arguing. If he wanted to escape, he had to play along and let Alex believe that he was agreeing to everything.
“May I go home now?” His own monotone voice sounded foreign to Adam like it came from the deepest, darkest unexplored depths of his soul. Adam did not hear Alex’s response. His entire body, in a suspended reaction, started trembling violently with an ugly terrifying realization that he was no longer the same person that Kris fell in love with.
Within a fraction of a millisecond, faster than his eyes could blink, all the bright colors in his surroundings were replaced by a dim cold grey haze that descended upon him like a cloak of death, blinding and stealing away all warmth and hope. As Adam grappled with the intensity of this debilitating sensation, he had come to one final understanding: Death would be a less painful alternative than a lifetime without Kris.