Fic: Thyself For Thy Vices (Brotherhood III, Megan/Victoria, Roger/Lex, R)

[carolinecrane]

This is...I'm not really sure what this is. I set out to write more Harlan/Marcus, but that wasn't happening. So then I was going to write Dodge/Munder, but all Dodge is doing is staring and being broody, so he was no help. Then out of nowhere Megan popped up and she's all, 'I think I have a voyeurism kink'. And I'm all, 'Megan, you don't have

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[gem225]

Current music: man, I need new music

Ohgod! I'm so sorry. I'll get you new music soon. I know that I've promised you stuff and I have no excuse for not having gotten it to you.

I'm really sorry.

[carolinecrane]

Gah! No, that wasn't a hint! Seriously, you have sent me more music than anyone *ever*, and to be honest I've been so out of it lately that I don't recall any such promise. I was not at all hinting, I was just lamenting the fact that I'm tired of everything I'm listening to lately. Really.

[gem225]

I know that it wasn't a hint, and I'm sorry that I didn't make that clear in my earlier comment. You're not that kind of a person. I just remembered and felt guilty about not getting you what I'd promised. My problem, not yours, not your fault, my friend, but thank you for the reassurance.

Seriously hot story. Whew. Oh yes. Wow!

[carolinecrane]

You are the sweetest. And I've got some stuff to copy for you too. Did I ever copy my New Porngraphers CDs for you? I can't remember. I should really keep a list.

Also, thanks. Poor Megan and her embarrassing sexual awakening. She's cute when she blushes, though.

[carolinecrane]

Seriously, when the girl develops a kink she doesn't mess around. I think even she was a little surprised by her sudden sexual awakening, but it's the kind of thing that sometimes sneaks up on you. It did with me, anyway. But that's possibly TMI as well.

Then again, what's a little TMI between friends? That's why we're here. Or something. I have no idea, I'm delirious from exhaustion. But you know, I'm glad this could push some of your buttons, because that means at least it was believable. Thanks.

[sassygirl]

This definitely pushed some of my buttons, heh. it was great. I'm sort of writing fic but I feel like a hypocrite if I even think about writing anything remotely sexual because i'm still a virgin myself, so I keep getting this little voice in my head that whispers that i'll get it all written down wrong and that people will laugh at me.

but thank you for writing your lovely fic!

[carolinecrane]

Don't let those people who say virgins can't write sex intimidate you. That's such a load of crap. I've never been a boy having sex with a boy, but I write gay porn all the damn time. The important thing isn't the technical part, where part A fits with part B, if you will -- the important thing is the emotions the characters are feeling. Be it lust, love, anger, rage, indifference, jealousy...whatever. It doesn't have to be all hearts and flowers, but it doesn't have to be about body parts, either

[exitsign]

Hi. Just jumping in with the above comments and saying that, if you want to write it, write it. There's guides out there for m/m and I'm sure there's the same with f/f and m/f. I personally learned everything I Never Needed To Know About Boys-Doing-Boys from reading other people's smut and kind of estimating along the way. So, yeah, the technical stuff is there for you to figure out. And, really, beta readers are a thing of fantastic beauty for catching little slip-ups and things like that. ;)

And also like the above, I believe that the 'this goes here and that goes there' is not all smut is about. Characterization, a good story, and most of all, emotion are way more important. Because it could be omgthehottestsexever and if it's got none of that? It would be pointless

[sassygirl]

I just want to apologise to Caroline for hijacking her comments page but thank you for all your advice and comments!

Thank you for your Outsiders comment, I got back into S.E Hinton's work after seeing Rumblefish and bought the dvds and really got back into the characters, they're so well characterised that you can get a feel for a history.
It's funny that you mentioned the Outsiders as the fics I want to write that have slash in are Outsiders fandom actually! I typed up my very first one a couple of weeks ago and I'm looking to explore some more relationships, but some are mostly to do with Two-Bit as he's my favourite :)

[exitsign]

Nonononono, Megan, it's okay, Go ahead, go back to the bed. Please. No one will know! I swear! ::sobs::

Ah, yeah, for real now. That was fucking hot. Like... 'Jesus Christ, that can't only be R-rated, I'm dying here' hot. ::fans self:: I love the way you bounced back and forth between Roger/Lex and Roger and Lex and Victoria and Victoria/Megan and Megan. It's just... it's, like, instead of just thinking 'oooh. Megan-y' I was thinking 'ooooh. I can't stop picturing all of them'. Like, it wasn't just her, you know? You just... for real, this is some inspired fucking fic, dude. Just... God, yeah, I love it.

The imagery was great and the pacing was, I think, fantastic and you really got all those feelings down -- the embarrassment and arousal and confusion -- and you just really rocked this story. So fucking hard. I can't... oh, dude, I just have no fucking words. I am just... I'm fucking speechless with love and admiration. I just... I can't... I don't even know what to say. This is beautiful in its flawless fucking perfection and I

[carolinecrane]

For real, I had no idea Megan had this in her. But having been one of those girls myself, the kind who just sort of floated through puberty doing more or less what I *thought* I was supposed to instead of what I wanted to, I can relate to her very sudden 'oh' moments with Victoria and then the shame of actually indulging. Poor, poor Megan.

But yeah, I'm really glad you liked, incoherence and all. I wasn't sure if this was going to work for anybody but me, so I am pleasantly surprised.

[ullman]

I'm in love with this fic right now. I don't read femmeslash all that often and if only more people wrote stories like this I'd seriously consider giving up on men. This was absolutely amazing, incredibly hot and wonderful imagery that left me breathless.

[carolinecrane]

I wish there was more femmeslash out there, but alas, most of the time I have to create my own. Thanks, though, glad you enjoyed.