I'll just close my eyes and wish it all away, I cant take this pain. I want to go, run, as fast as I can. Find a paradise. Anywhere will do. My world is crumbling. The insecrity was cause by you. Everyday Im wishing to be someone new.

I wrote this awhile ago about my mom and I just found it

i love ryan

xxx Carolyn xxx

Hey babes! Im hanging with Wang right now, she is looking at pictures of my past lol and laughing. Well I just got home today from my grandma's i have been there since monday, i love staying the night there. It just sucked cuz i didnt get to go online till today and i didnt get to talk to anyone, besides WANG! lol ! Olivia is reading notes from all ( Read more... )

oh dear today is my mom's surprise 50th party and man i cant wait for her not to be home one day so i can look at her dirty gifts lol. Well right now Im just chillen really hoping I can spend the night at my grandma's, and i know this sounds totally lame but i hope i can cuz then i can help my grandma go grocery shopping. I love shopping with her ( Read more... )

So right now im chillin with the hot and sexy ali!*as she smiles* Anyways tonire has been fun except Ali just jabbed a straw on the roof of my mouth on accident of course. So we watched the Oc and it made Alison cry! well we wont talk about that. Anyways whore go find another corner, dont ask. We're thinking of ways to make my parents let josh ( Read more... )

Well, today was kinda boring, havent really done anything, Ali might come over later not to sure whats going on with her situation over at home. Anyways I tanned outside for like a minute lol then wanted to get into the pool but harold and his lil friend had to get in so i got out. Man last night so many emtions were running through my head, i ( Read more... )

Whats up homies? Nah, just kidding I just feel ghetto in Beckyz Ralph Lauren hoodie. lol Anyways, let me tell you about yesterday and today ( Read more... )

Andrea was here the whole week which was FRICKIN SWEET. And I know another person besides Andrea that found it sweet too. LOL! We had so much fun this week and mostly it was a normal week for me! Aw Josh and Andrea were so cute at the fireworks yesterday. And sadly me and ryan didnt do anything. But it'll happen when the time is right. lol. Well we ( Read more... )

layy me down on a bed a gold... roll me around til the cows come home... drive me wild in the soft sweet grass hillbilliess like it like that!!!!!!!!!!

AWW I LOVE HILLBILLIES>

IM ONE BUT UR A TRUE ONE.

If you had sex every day for a year, the condoms could be melted down to make a tire. What would you call the tire? I'd call it a fucking good year!

I THOUGHT THIS WAS SOOO FUNNI!!

x0x0 carolyn x0x0

Well today me and Andrea woke up at NOON! HOLY HELL I KNOW! Then we sat our ass' down and chatted online. Then we took showers(not together) and go ready because Josh and Devon were coming cover. Then at like 3 they were here but Andrea was almost ready. So we hung in my living room for a little bit then went in the basement and watched THE ( Read more... )