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[messiah_me]

Everyone but Wesley left the room. I was actually glad that we were alone. "Wesley." I started as I looked to him. "I know you want me to rest, but I honestly am tapped out on rest, I think I would much rather go for a walk, or I don't know have a drink." I could tell that Wesley didn't want this, that he wanted me to lay down, play the sickly

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[_wes_pryce_]

Go for a walk or have a drink? I think her brain might be more infected then she's letting on. Not, mind you, that I'll ever say that out loud. At least not now. I'm to tired myself after everything that has happened. After all that worrying and it's still not over. The rest went over to Wolfram and Hart; Willow might be out there on some deep, dark, magical rampage

[messiah_me]

"Nevermind" I said annoyed. "Look, she has been this close before. She may not have even thought about that. Part of me wonders if she even considered that she may not come back from this."

I could see his side, and I know that he has seen a lot worse over the years, I just...I guess nearly dying changes a girl.

"So..." I said changing the subject since I don't want to fight anymore. "How about that drink." I added flashing my famous smile.

[_wes_pryce_]

Never mind? Why the bloody hell was she annoyed now? What was I supposed to do. Fall on my knees and woreship Willow? That was rather odd coming from Cordelia suddenly wasn’t it? “That is one of the things Willow has yet to learn,” I point out to her. “To consider the consequences before leaping into action. But since everyone here seems to have that habit

[messiah_me]

I didn't know what to do. Part of me wanted to avoid asking what was going through my mind, avoid finding out what really happened, what I couldn't see when all I could see was visions.

I wanted to know all of that, but at the same time, I didn't. I didn't want to know what I looked like and I didn't want to know that maybe somewhere deep down I probably deserved what I got, I probably had it coming from all the things I did in sunnydale, and all the things I said when Willow got her, how I wanted Angel to send her away.

"Wes." I whisper my whole mood changing showing what I have been trying to hide. "Am I a bad person?" I asked. "Am I still the girl from Sunnydale who didn't care who she hurt?"

[_wes_pryce_]

I can’t help but stare at her when she points out she’s missing something. Did she miss the whole speech I just gave her? Why again do I bother to open my mouth? She of course also missed how everyone was crying for Willow and Angel to come safe the day. Always the super heroes’ with the super powers. Or the muscles like Gunn. Never the skinny little book fellow who can save the woman he loves

[messiah_me]

"I am not asking you to spoon feed me everything, I am asking you to possibly just tell me what the hell I did so I can fix it. You always talk in circles, probably comes from reading all those boring prophecies, but for once can you please just tell me what I did." I was starting to get upset, for the first time since Xander I let anyone see how I really felt, my actual emotions, no cover.

"And do you want me to go with you?" I asked honestly because I didn't think I was really wanted right now.

[_wes_pryce_]

Hurt flashes over my face at her words. Is that what she thinks of me too? First it putting me on the same line with every man in the world, and now I’m boring. Well, that’s nice to know. I’m starting to think I liked it better when we just bickered without all these emotions in involved

[messiah_me]

"I do not think your boring....ok sometimes I do with all your prophecies that I don't understand, but thats only because I don't understand them. You are far from boring otherwise. I do think you are cryptic sometimes, and maybe you read too much into what I am saying since you came to the conclusion that I implied you wanted sex from the statement that you won't always get what you want. I, as I told you before, truly only meant that you won't always get me to do what you want, as in rest and so on

[_wes_pryce_]

“That’ll be the day,” I muttered under my breath so she couldn’t hear me. Corelia Chase and actually listening to me. I’d pay to see that. That will never really happen. And if it does, she’ll only do it under protest or to make me happy. Though, I can’t really find fault in the latter. Now if only the rest of our motley crew would listen to me for once, that would be splendid.

Picking up a piece of paper, I pushed my glasses up my nose and quickly scribbled a note for Angel. Saying that we left so Cordy could rest and where he could reach us in case of an emergency. I left out the boss part for.. Well, obvious reasons. “We can slide it under his door. If we leave it in the lobby it will no doubt get lost.”

Getting on my feet, I grabbed my jacket and pulled it on. The note slid in my pocket so I could get it easily once we passed Angel’s door. Then I grabbed Cordy’s coat and held it out for her. “Maybe you should take a nice hot bath when we get home,” I suggested. “You like that and it’s relaxing isn’t’ it?”

[messiah_me]

"Alright, but if I hear moaning from that room I am so going to be sick." I said as I let him slide my jacket over my arms.

Its funny, but I used to make fun of what a gentleman he was, would say that it was just his way of sucking up, probably in part is, but now it just makes me like him all the much more. The guys that I used to date, all scum, most with hair plugs or too much money and no personality...well there is no such thing as too much money, but no personality, they had that...Wesley is the complete opposite.

I hear his comment about the bath, ahh the days where I could come home, Dennis run me a hot bath and a good loofah, yes I miss that. "You would allow me to take a bath?" I joked. "That does sound like a good idea, haven't had time to just relax in a long time."

[_wes_pryce_]

“Moaning?” I gave her a confused look as I held up her coat so she could slip into it. Why would there be moaning coming from that room? I didn’t under… Oh. Oh!. Clearing my throat, I ducked my head to hide the blush I could already feel crawling up my neck. She was talking about Angel and Willow. Are they particular loud? Can’t say I’ve.. I really don’t want to know

[messiah_me]

He finally caught on and when we passed the room almost like clock work there was a moan. Ok now I am really going to be sick. I was glad that he hurried to put the note under the door, I don't think I could have handled that sound for any longer.

"It was a joke, because...well I am not sure why I said it, it made sense at the time." I told him. "And my brownies were made from a recipe that was handed down to me by way of our maid, they weren't that bad...were they?" Ok so maybe they were, I never claimed to be a cook he should know that by now. "Fine, no brownies, we can just continue to order lots of chinese." I added with a smile.

"Fine fine, I will wait right here like a good little girl while you wait on me hand and...wait I am starting to like this plan." I smiled. It had been a long time since someone did everything for me, maybe...oh who am I kidding, I couldn't let him do everything for me...just most things.