I called my mom today to wish her a happy birthday. I got the answering machine and left a message. She hasn't spoken to me since she put me on the plane. I feel really bad. She called Sue the other day and told her to tell me that she cancelled my bank account. I don't even care. I just want to go home and be forgiven.

I just talked to Rachel on the phone. I finally got a phone card today, but it was only a 40 minute one for $5. I talked to her for a little over 25 minutes I think, and then she had to go eat dinner. She and I are going to hang out on the 29th and do something special for the 7th month anniversary of Adam's death. Our celebration might include ( Read more... )

I want to wish a very special person in my life a happy birthday today. I’ve known her since I was 14, and she’s been in my life steadily ever since.

Happy birthday, Dee. You are my hero. I am lucky to know you. LUFF YOU!! *attackles*

I just wanted to take this moment to mention that Jeff called me today, and it was really nice to hear from him. I also called Mike. He said it was amazing that I got through because the circuits have been extremely busy, and no one's been able to reach him on his cell phone for days. Also, I really appreciate the long online chats I've been having ( Read more... )

I think I'm homesick ( Read more... )

My heart is beating hard and fast. My hands are trembling slightly. I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something is not right. It came over me suddenly. I feel nostalgic and morbid.

I wish I was in someone's arms.

I just got back from seeing The Big Friendly Giant at the Seattle Children's Theater. I went with Sue, Johnny, and Johnny's friend Nick. The set design, stage direction, costumes, and acting were all very good. The theater has a very nice atmosphere. The play was funny, and we all enjoyed ourselves.

I miss the dreams I once had.

It's too late for me to reclaim my idealism.

I want to go back, several years back, still knowing what I know now.

Things would be different.

The whole Tony drama of last night got worked out. I talked to Ryan, and it turns out Tony completely misinterpreted what Ryan said. Of course, Tony won't own responsibility for the situation, claiming that sometimes Ryan is hard to understand. Anyway, I'm just glad that it's straightened out. Ryan's a chill guy, and I don't want to be on bad terms ( Read more... )

Dee called me a little while ago. She's backstage at the John Mayer concert she went to. She hadn't met him yet when she called, but she was already hanging out with some of the other band members. I'm really excited for her and hope she's having the time of her life right now. I love her so much ( Read more... )