so i didnt sleep. around 1am i went out. like i do on every general night. i thought a lot last night. considering what i had on my plate last night i didnt think much of it, randomly i was thinking about when i was like 11. instead of making me think about what i talked to her about all i could do was think about how much it sucked when my ( Read more... )

ok, I hate all of you. with the exception of
1. some of my family
2. the band
3. paul
thats about it. thanks and fuck you

"Time Turned Fragile ( Read more... )

for all of you who know me this doesnt come to you as unusual. for the past couple of months i have been dealing with so many things, important things and i wish everything could just be gone (dont we all) fuck, well so this is what im saying. with my job, school approaching, the band, paying the pauls mom, not being able to live in a place with ( Read more... )

"The Trooth ( Read more... )

so, its been since Europe. im free of most debts, im on my own and the band is rolling. some what. besides the absent filth of my little demons, im going to school in like a month its going to be sweet, but im wondering about my job options a little. 25 an hour move or stay and make a little (lot) less. mind master paul, aka drunk in paris said ( Read more... )

ok so this is this, im going to be in europe. and as of right now im missing you so bad. manda, i love you so much and im already missing your cute face. ok well this would be my last entry for a little bit. im going to call every opportunity that i get. i love you so much and i whish you could be with me. just remember feel good inc. and that ( Read more... )

scroll to bottom first and read last line on entry. thank you ( Read more... )

so, its done. i actually feel more loss than what i though i would. this is hard for me because i have never really liked being home. school was almost like the thing that helped me escape mentally. its hard now not knowing or understanding where i stand but its pure individualism and in the first 24 hours i have begun to deal with the harsh face ( Read more... )

ok today. it has come to my attention that we as a band have to set up rules. not dont do this or you have to do this rules. i call them personal life rules. unfortunatly as i rode to the place of practice we had a small discussion. this is a business, uphold the ideas that needless to say personal issues must be addressed but arent supposed to ( Read more... )