shite,shite and triple shite to the max times 10...i think i just made another big mistake...im so sick of falling for guys,it sux!i hate myself for it.im so confused and at the same time i dont care. i have more important things on my mind...like...the happiness of my friends...not naming anyone, of course. sometimes they just unhelpable and im ( Read more... )

i have these secrets that burn inside ( Read more... )

last night...well very early this morning i checked my old phone...just to see if i had any friends,well as i checked my voicemail, i heard a voice from the past, i hadnt seen this particular kiwi boy in nearly two years. he said how he wanted to chat and just check to see if i was still alive seeings as we havent talked in so long. it made me ( Read more... )

tell myself a secret???its hard not too,i want him so bad but i dot think he wants me and that thought is making me want another...

hmm i guess to day was one of those days that one hour you're up ^ the next you feel lower than the dirt that you're sposed to be sweeping up ( Read more... )

things are weird...i dont how to describe it.for so long ive been thinking of this boy but i get distracted so easily and it sux!i know deep down that i want him to be my beautiful but i also know that he may not want me and i also know that i dont wanna be alone.i guess i just want to be someone's special,just to know that i do mean something to ( Read more... )

today was sooo..."meh"...i think the most active thing i did was headbutt gug and nearly knock her out...how sad. im feeling so disgusting,its horrible,i can feel unhealthy juices and oils flowing through my body and i ahte myself because i lie to myself so much,i always say that i'll do something about but i dont,and it makes me horribley sad...to ( Read more... )

i think i made a mistake..or maybe i didnt...i dont know!!!!!!!!!!! this is so horrible,i think someone else has likings for him and i wouldnt be surprised if he has likings for her as well...i hate this. why is that somethings is always shit??? its not always the same thing but there is always something ans it shits me off to the max times 10 ( Read more... )

i called him and we spoke for over two hours which in contrast to some other phone calls isnt long but it was still good none the less. the conversatioon was kept away from anything personal which for now can only be a good thing...i sent him an email explaining myself and my thoughts but i have no idea how he is going to react and all i can do is ( Read more... )

things are so strange...i have enough trouble admitting that to myself let alone admitting it to other people... even the closest of my closest friends ( Read more... )