and then it was 9 years..

[cas73g2]

i have now lived 1/2 of my life without my dad. wow. 9 years. i cant believe it. today was tough, really sad. i was emotional for part of the day, but mostly i just thought. its such a crazy concept-hes been gone for 9 years. i cant even, i dont know. i just stared at the computer screen for about 5 minutes. its still just so hard to believe.

Comments

[cate526]

Cassie, you are an amazing girl who's courage and strength has made you into such an incredible person. Every time i see you, i am astounded by how awesome you make me feel! I hate it that a lot of how amazing you are comes from having to adjust to such a a horrible thing, but...well you are just incredible thats all. I adore you.

[zfunky]

you are perfect. you're right, you don't need to hear it, but sometimes it helps.

and i thought i'd tell you this now because there really isn't a better time: whenever i look at pictures with your dad with you, or you talk about him, i see so much of him in you. i never did meet him, but when you talk about him the way you glow proves that he will always be with you, and losing him is something you never have to get over.

ill love you forever. xox

[cas73g2]

thank you all. so much. i wish you could all know him. youd love him dearly, and i know hed love all of you. iz, saying that i glow when i talk about him, i know. both my parents. i cant even describe to you all how incredible they were/are. thanks you guys, for everything. and izzy especially, thanks for being there for me for the past 5 1/2 years..i love you.

[_colormecrazy_]

you are so amazing.
i can't even fathom that i have lived two years without my dad. the whole "it seems like just yesterday...." situation applies here. so, pretty much, you're my hero. i'm so proud that you've been able to keep going through all of this, especially with both of your parents, and i understand how hard it can be and how much it hurts.
one of my good friends said this after my dad died: "...this is life, though. it sucks and hurts a lot sometimes, but only so it can be wonderfully amazing another time."
it made me feel a little bit better about living.
so keep being amazing, keep being awesome, and most of all...keep living. your friends (yah that's me) love you more than anything!

[cas73g2]

emily tucker, i love you. its comforting that you actually understand what im feeling. i adore you em, i think youre so incredible. and i cant believe it took us this long to become good friends. but im so glad it happened. i love you. ugh, i just effing love you.